6-27-14. Weight 222 lost 8.5 w 51.5 Togo
Look just be you. I hate fake people and that includes the phases in my life when I pretended to be something I wasn't or changed me to please someone else because I did not feel worthy.
Women , we are our worst enemy. Not just to ourselves but we are absolutely vicious to each other.
I can't Stand people who gossip! I hold the value that if I have something to say to you I will say it to you! I hold the belief that if someone is talking to you about someone then they are talking about you to someone.
Just be you and let me decided don't allow me to love you and not an image of you.
I truly believe I have finally found my soulmate because I decided just to be me. I didn't garnish an apron and cookbook on our first date. I believed that I was worthy of love. it was too hard in my failed marriage to be the "perfect wife" I killed myself to be everything he wanted and he still wanted something else.
Pat loves ME. He loves that I cook and shows graciousness and not expectation. He loves that I keep a clean house but he gets up and helps me. He encourages everything I do and tickles me just to see me smile.
I am happier than I have ever been because I am me 24/7. When you create a world around an illusion you become a visitor instead of a resident.
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Surviving me. Becomming my own friend
HumorI have been overweight 80% of my whole life. I am mid-life , quit smoking, divorced and trying to get healthy. Did you hear that NOT SKINNY but healthy. I am journaling my struggles an successes using my smart ass dry humor. I have an amazing sense...
