6-24-14 weight 223.5, 223, 224.5, 224 55,55.5,56,54 to go
Seriously for a minute that is my weight over the last 4 days never one time going over my food calories and waling a combined 15 miles?
Even though I know its not fat.....it certainly feels like fat. The number represents fat. The scale jumps up and makes a fat joke and in one second I feel impending defeat.Even though I know with each brain cell screaming at me "no its just water weight, your building muscle, or you haven't taken a BM today", I feel like crying. Contrary to that are the days I step and its down, even ,00001 pounds I celebrate in my nakedness accomplished body. I have nothing short of an I DID IT parade in my bathroom were my only spectator is one of my two cats in to use the litter. They just look at me like "so what", poop and leave me standing there surrendering all my power to this measuring device.
The sad part is I don't just let is measure my FAT. For 5-10 minutes depending on the gain I let it measure myself. I let it knock the books out of my intellectual's hands as it sticks gum in my goddesses hair. I allow it to look at my Olympian and take away her medal. It sends me to the principles office and puts my laughter in detention. OK OK enough. So how did I give this scale so much power? When I look at my weight it is like I am addicted to crack only a fat crack head.
I am smarter than your average chipmunk. I really just want to do it once a week. I know with all of my IQ points that as long as I am under calories and working out my water weight, muscle mass,and bathroom regularity (your welcome) can change the scale hour by hour. I am not a sadist however; having all this knowledge I have let that tiny square on my floor swallow me. Take my candy.I am going to work on just weighing on Friday's.
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