7-6-14 weight 220 lost 10.5 with 54.5 to go
In March of 2013 I found myself or a least this resemblance of me.It was as if someone had cleaned a mirror and I could see outside of my home again. What I saw was a woman frozen and without a smile. Her eyes seemed distant and almost defeated as she surrenders to the misery. She had disappeared into the fabric of her world and claimed self un importance. She could not remember who she was or what she wanted and why she ever came to this putrid place. Standing before her a man who's heart at one time had allowed sweetness and nectar to permeate from his lips. Like a honey bee she entered and what she found was toxic. She slowly lost her passion, her will, her self esteem.
I took Her back. I grabbed her hand and left the darkness. I felt truly alone and a stranger within my own heart. I had no idea was anymore. I thought back to the happiest times and thought to myself what did I love then..... So I bought a sketch pad and graphite pencils. I started writing. I would sit in my acoustically superb apartment and listen to all the music I loved and was passionate about before he stuck his fingers in my ears. I danced, I stopped drinking and I re introduced myself to the world and God into my life.
What I found was that I loved me. I could be my best friend. I was OK and I was going to survive. I placed a value on me. I TOOK ME BACK.
Throughout this journey and self re discovery I decided to take back my health. I decided to make small changes that overall would change me just as color to a painting. First I quit smoking then I found Loseit, then fitbit then exercise and here I sit at the keyboard writing a weight loss journal after a 5 mile walk getting ready to prepare Me a healthy breakfast confident enough to share my journey with you. TAKE IT BACK.
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Surviving me. Becomming my own friend
HumorI have been overweight 80% of my whole life. I am mid-life , quit smoking, divorced and trying to get healthy. Did you hear that NOT SKINNY but healthy. I am journaling my struggles an successes using my smart ass dry humor. I have an amazing sense...
