4-16-14
Did not even step on the scale this morning. Didn't want to. It is almost as If I am holding on tight to Mondays date. Lets see if I can completely unravel 3 months of work in 30 days<-----scratching my head? Nope I wont start not one second earlier.
I don't know why I need a GOAL DATE, A START date or any date for that matter. It did help me quit smoking though. I guess food as an addiction is just as bad.
I still have no clue how to stop being angry at people who eat everything and anything never exercise and stay thin. They are the first one's to say "well everyone is different and has a different metabolism". Excuse me while I ball up a fist and help wipe that cheesecake frosting off your lip. Please give me a break. as a matter of fact I don't think any SKINNY person (unless you've lost the weight) should say a freaking word. Ya feel me on this?
I was doing so great I had lost 14 pounds and walked over 200 miles in 3 months. See there it is, do you see the gravity and enormity of that last statement? 3 month of 1800 calories or less (hungry) and walking 200 miles to lose 14 pounds. I am really not sure other that depression that came with the heart issues and feeling tired and ill for several weeks, what caused me to abort my stronghold and revert to a fetal position as I devoured food for 30 days and gained 12 of the 14 pounds back. I'm not even sure I am mad at myself. I am disappointed and feel bloated but mad at me nope.
MONDAY! MONDAY! MONDAY! I want my life back! I am actually excited to get back on the train choo choo.
That's my thought for today
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