100 Memories Of You And Me ✔

Moment 4

Moment 4: Voicemail on Ross Killian's landline

Hey, you have reached Doctor Ross Killian, please leave a message after the beep.

BEEP

"Say you need me like you mean it. She is yours, I know she is. She has your blue eyes and less hair than my other two.

She is perfect. More than perfect, she is a part of me and you and I resent that you no longer want a part of my life.

Her name is Claire Rose Jones. I guess I know you want to be part of her life, but I can't trust you with her. 

They say that true love never dies, but how can I trust that? Ross, you said so yourself, having children made me weak. I can't deny that, even when it is bad, I can see good. They don't know anything else.

I know, Ross, you were convinced I was a bad mother. I put my career before my children, it is selfish, but I knew they could do without me. They were better off without me until I knew what I could not do for them. Every day is a war, a battle and you promised to stay for those too.

Ross, you were sure you could handle everything I that I came with and so I gave you my all. I invested and it took a pretty something else for your eye to stray. I know that your research is your life and for a long time it was my life too.

But I am more than that, I have to be and you are right, it is hard. No one told me anything else.

They did not tell me about how much you question everything. About how hopeless it all seems.  How lonely and resentful it is. Maybe I'll come to love them like the stories tell me I have to. But for now, they are in my life. Three perfect people who need me to be there and present. 

I know I promised you a lot Killian but I promised them something too. I promised the moment I held them that they would be a part of my world. That I make an honest effort to meet their needs and wants.

Which is why I am disappointed in you. Unusual right? I always thought that a relationship with you would mean absolute acceptance of the people I couldn't live without. I tried to be a parent who let their children look after themselves but I can't. They need me more than you do. I left my notes in the safe at the bank. Don't worry I arranged for them to be delivered to you.

Best of luck and my love to you. I am sorry I was less of a human in your eyes. But truthfully we could do better than each other. 

*Phone cuts* 

A/N: This is from Gale's perspective just after she moved in with Johnathan and Chulu.