compare scars

thirty seven

Dan watched as Kyle stood in the doorway, looking at him with disbelief. He himself though was surprised.

All he had wanted was to be back, standing in this doorway. He wanted to wake up when he had a bad dream and look over to the other side of the bed and see Kyle laying next to him. He wanted someone to go with him to his one night gallery. Sure Charlie and his family had gone, but the tiny space still looked empty in the photographs.

"Um can I come in?" He asked, watching as Kyle nodded, and opened the door wider for him to enter.

"Wow." Dan marveled as he looked around the apartment. In his mind the apartment would look more like how he envisioned Kyle. Lively, bright, unique, but no. The walls were bare, and there was a minimal amount of furniture.

"I know this place is ass." Kyle muttered, looking around. It was nothing compared to his last apartment. He can still remember the day him and Dan spent decorating it. Together they painted the walls a light grey, and hung pictures from almost every available surface. Looking around the place was like looking at a scrapbook oh Kyle's life.

But this new place was nothing like that. I'm all honesty he hasn't thought of decorating it.

"You went and saw Liz." Dan started, watching as Kyle paced around the living room.

"Yeah I did." His heartbeat starts to beat faster. He can't let Dan know everything. Surly it would result in final breakup that neither would come back from.

"I just, uh had to have someone to talk to. I know it's weird and all, you just always spoke so highly of her and I just couldn't live with all the guilt."

"Kyle, it's fine." He said his tone short. He hoped that she hadn't told Kyle what he had told to her.

"Good, I was worried you would be angry. But Dan she helped me so much. I've turned everything around! I got a job as an art teacher, and I've been sober for almost two months now, and it's gonna stay that way. Really I've changed." His voice was desperate, his hands shaking. Kyle had never felt like this before.

In all his life he had never felt this type of fear. All he could think about was saying the wrong thing, and then never seeing Dan again. And as much as he knows he can survive it, he knows nothing will be the same. A piece of him will always be missing.

"I don't doubt it. I've changed too. For the better or for worse, I don't know." Dan chuckled, watching as Kyle couldn't sit still. He hates that this is what he's done to him, but he also wasn't the one who ruined everything.

The scene still plays over and over in his head. He can't get the smirk on Kyle's face out of his mind. Dan can't seem to get away from it, nightmares of the event haunt his dreams.

"Daniel I'm so sorry. It was just a one time thing. I know what I did was inexcusable, but it won't ever happen again. I feel terrible you were trying to help me, and in the moment I did  it see that. I understand if you want me to leave. If you don't forgive me it's alright, I'll go away and leave you alone if that's what you want, but I want you to know that I've changed. But whatever you have to say, I'll respect it."

Dan looked at him, tears beginning to form in both the men's eyes. It was comical almost.

"I forgive you."

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Hi my name is hayden and I haven't updated in three months. Don't really even have a reason besides the fact that I haven't been on wattpad in four years lol.

Pretty sure everyone left this story and nobody is reading but if u r thanks