Hate that I love you (An Ashton Irwin fanfic)

Chapter 1

I sighed as I heard my alarm going off. Ugh, after the summer holidays it was time to go back to school. At least this was my last year and after that I could go on to do whatever I wanted.

‘Jade! It’s time to get up sweetie’ my mum yelled.

‘Yeah, I’m up mum!’ I shouted back as I pulled myself out of bed, made a half attempt to make it and walked over to my wardrobe and took my hideous new uniform out. Nothing I hated more than a new uniform, the crisp shoulders on the blazer because it hadn’t been worn in yet.

I threw my uniform on my bed and headed for the bathroom to have a quick shower. I played my music as I showered and looked down at my hideous self, wishing I was thin and pretty like all the other girls at school. I got out the shower and slowly walked back into my room, still in my towel and sat on the edge of my bed, still tired and contemplating getting back under the covers and refusing to go to school. But everyone knows you can’t miss the first day back at school or you’ll get left with the shit seats in class that no one wants. So I got up and started to get ready. I walked over to my dressing table, put on some moisturiser then started applying make-up; nothing major because I’d probably get told to wipe it off anyway. Then I plugged my curlers in and went to go and get some cereal while they heated up. I don’t understand why all my friends are excited to go back to school, we’ve been able to do what we want all summer and not we have to go back to that prison. How thrilling.

When I got downstairs my mum was rushing around getting her work stuff ready. ‘Hey babe’ she said half smiling but I could see she was exhausted. All she seems to have done the past few weeks is work; when she’s not here she’s with my grandmother who hasn’t been that well recently so I don’t see that much of my mum. So even though today was a horrible day with going back to school and all, I was happy to actually see my mother.

‘Hi mum, you in work again today? Seriously, you work too much’ I said as I poured out a bowl of coco pops with milk and began eating.

‘Yes unfortunately. I have to work this much to get as much money as I can for us. Seen as it’s just you and me and you have no money coming in, I need to get money for us to live off sweetie’ she replied as she was rushing around.

‘I’ll get a job mum, it’s not fair that you never get to rest because I’m lazy’

‘That’s not what I meant’ mum said as she stopped and looked at me with a sympathetic look on her face.

‘No, I know. But the least I could do is help’

‘It’s fine honestly chick. I gotta go now. Love you’ she rushed past me and grabbed me and kissed my forehead. ‘Don’t know what time I’ll be home but there’s some money under the fruit bowl, order pizza or something. Love you, bye’ she said as she was walking out the door.

I finished my cereal, put my bowl in the sink and headed upstairs to do my hair.

I’ll even say myself that I spend too much time on my hair. It’s the only nice thing about me so I have to make an effort with it. My medium brown hair comes down to my waist and takes a while to curl but it looks pretty good when I curl it even if I do say so myself.

So after my hair is done and I’ve put my uniform on, I get my bag and get some crisps (potato chips) to eat on the way to school. I walk out the door and lock up behind me and head off to school. Another reason I hated school, I have to walk there all by myself. It’s only about 10 minutes away but that’s not the point.

I met my friends outside the gate, because walking through them gates alone is like a death wish. The guys stand at either side and give the girls comments on how they look or something stupid. Why they haven’t been stopped is beyond me.

‘You ready?’ my friend Lauren said

‘Nope’ I replied sighing

‘It might be fun’ said my other friend Erin

We both turned to look at her.

‘It most definitely will not be fun. It’s school. It’s as far from fun as you can get’ I said

‘Someone got out on the wrong side of the bed this morning’ Erin laughed

‘There’s only one said I can get out of’ I replied smiling

‘Alright Sargent Sarcasm’ Lauren said giggling.

‘Should we get this over with?’ I said pointing to the gates.

We all stayed silent for a few seconds.

‘Let’s go’ Erin said linking both our arms and heading for the gate.

We could hear the comments the girls in front of us were getting.

‘ayyy Jemma, did you get a new skirt or has some of the material disappeared from the bottom of your old one?’ shouted a boy with dark hair. He was the worst. Calum Hood. He was an absolute dick, but very hot at the same time.

‘Oh look it’s Jade and her little crew. Back for another year of school. How are we, girls?’ Shouted Calum

‘Fab thanks Calum, and yourself?’ I replied. I’d say something sarcastic like I’m well known for, but I just wanted to get into school without a fuss.

‘Great thanks babe’ he said laughing and turning to his friends and whispering something. His friend Michael Clifford, was an awkward guy but still just as loud.

‘Well, if it isn’t my good friend Lauren’ Calum said winking at her.

Lauren stayed quiet as she has this weird obsession with Calum and has had the biggest crush on him since they done a science project together last year.

‘Say hi then!’ He shouted to her.

‘Hi’ she mumbled.

Another boy stood with all the rest, but stayed quiet. He never really said much. I think his name is Luke Hemmings but I’m not that sure. How did he get in with all them when no one ever hears him speak a word? I noticed he kept looking as us as we walked into the school grounds. When I say us, he was looking at Erin.

We finally got passed them all. ‘Well that wasn’t too bad to be honest, was it?’ I said breathing a sigh of relief.

‘I seriously think that’s the nicest they’ve ever been to anyone’ Said Lauren

‘I know, and I think that worries me…. But someone *cough* Erin, got checked out by the quiet one hahaha’ I said winking at her.

‘Don’t start that, he always does it and it kinda creeps me out’ she said quietly

‘Aw but he’s cute’ said Lauren.

‘Yeah he is but I don’t like being looked at. It makes me feel uncomfortable’.