Hate that I love you (An Ashton Irwin fanfic)

Chapter 40

I lived the rest of the weekend in fear. On Saturday afternoon I received a text from none other than Ashley saying "I'm really sorry about last night! I deserve everything you said and did. Please forgive me"

I completely ignored it. I meant what I said. I wanted absolutely nothing to do with him again. Even the thought of being in the same room for a lesson sickened me. 

I stayed in my room alone and just sat thinking. I phoned Ashton on Saturday night but I just wasn't myself and he could tell.

'What's wrong?' He asked half way through the conversation

'Hmm? Oh nothing' I lied

'Babe, I know when something up with you. Even when I'm not right next to you, I know'

I considered telling him but wasn't sure how to word it without making it sound worse than it was

'I'm fine baby' I said

'Well I know you're not but its your choice not to tell me' he said, then changed the subject.

I felt bad for not telling him but it wasn't the time.

When the conversation had finished I placed my phone on my desk and curled up under the covers in bed.

The next morning I lay staring at the window, worrying about facing tomorrow. I'd be face to face with Ashley. I know he's going to try and throw an apology at me but this time an apology wouldn't cut it. He'd took his stupid games too far. Insulting me, I could handle. But Ashton? Definitely not.

I picked my phone up to surprising see a text from none other than Luke. I looked at my phone confusingly before reading what he had sent me.

"Hi Jade. I know this may come as a shock, me texting you but I had to do something. I told Ashton I wouldn't say anything or interfere but he's really worried about you. He knows some things wrong with you but says you won't tell him. I'm sorry if you don't think he should have told me but I won't tell anyone. I hope you're okay, please talk to Ash"

I was more surprised by the lengthy message from a boy who I bearly heard speak. But it really shocked me to think Ash was worried about me. I knew he'd always known when I wasnt okay but he'd never took it this far. He really did know me. I smiled for a second at the thought of him before coming back to the realization of what had been said.

I had to go home soon and talk to Ash. I couldn't wait until Christmas.

I pulled out my laptop and looked at dates. I did something I may possibly regret but I booked a train home for the next weekend, to leave Friday morning; meaning I'd be skipping classes that day.

I done something I thought I'd never do, I picked up my phone and dialled Luke's number.

'Hello' he answered, obviously confused

'Hi Luke. Sorry to bother you, I just want to know what Ash had said' I said. I felt quite bad afterward as I didn't even ask if he was okay or anything

'Oh okay. Well we were all together yesterday, me, Ash, Cal and Mike and we could tell something was wrong and he said that he was worried about you. He said that you wouldn't say why you was upset but he understood that but he knows that its something big because of the way you was talking and he said he just knows'

Wow Ashton knew me inside out. I couldn't decide if it was heartwarming or scary.

'Its just... Oh never mind' I sighed

'You can tell me you know' Luke said 'I'm not going to say anything. I don't know if you see me as a friend but I see you as one'

I smiled to myself at his kindness. I'd never really paid much attention to him but he was such a lovely boy