Hate that I love you (An Ashton Irwin fanfic)

Chapter 33

The time soon came. In two days I was scheduled to be moving into my student accommodation and I still hadn't packed. I felt like if I didn't pack and I wasn't ready then I couldn't possibly leave.

I spent as much time with Ashton as I could but I had spent the previous week visiting family because I didn't see much of them as it was.

As I looked around I saw everything that I was used to be seeing everyday that would soon become a treat to see whenever I came home.

I left the essentials out until the last minute. I decided to leave the collage of me and Ashton out until just before I left so I could still see it everyday.

I was so unprepared. I didn't feel ready in any way what so ever.

'If you want, you can stay at mine tomorrow night. Unless your mum wants you to be at home, I do understand with it being your last night at home. My family won't be home and it'll be the last night we have together for a while' Ashton said when he came over to my house later on that day

'I'd love too. My mum won't mind' I said and smiled at him

Whether my mum minded or not, I wanted to see Ashton. Although she was my mother I felt like Ashton cared about me a lot more. She's an amazing mother but until she found out I was moving out we never got on that well.

That night I got into my pyjamas, the only pair I had left out and got into bed. It was strange knowing this would be the last night in a long time that I'd be in my own bed. My own bed at home anyway.

I scanned my room using the bit of moonlight shining in as a guide around it.

I began to feel sick at the thought of everything changing so much so quickly.

_ _ _ _

The next morning I rolled over and sighed. Well, tomorrow was the big day. I had to finish all my packing before I went to Ashton's.

I got out of bed and took the picture of Ashton and I off the wall and put it in a bag.

After I had used all my toiletries I also packed those. I would probably use things from Ashton's house tomorrow.

I sat on the edge of my bed and noticed how bare my room was. There was a lighter patch on the wall where the photo was taken down from.

I pushed all of my bags to one side and headed downstairs.

'Good morning' my mum smiled

'Morning' I replied 'I'm going to stay at Ashton's tonight'

'Oh' my mum said and her smile dropped 'Do you not think I would like to see my daughter before she leaves too?'

'We'll be in the car together for two hours tomorrow' I said

'Well is Ashton not coming too?'

'I don't know, he'd have to come back on his own with you and I wouldn't wish that upon anyone' I said smiling as I took a seat at the table

'Well I don't mind' my mum said

'I don't know if he is'

We sat together and had breakfast and I could feel her eyes burn into me as I was eating. I could almost hear her thoughts. She didn't want me to go.

I looked up from my bowl of cereal and my mum smiled weakly at me.

'Love you mum' I said

'I love you too sweetie' she said

I got up and gave her a hug before returning upstairs and getting ready. I didn't have many clothes left out, not any decent ones anyway. I text him and prepared him of how much of a tramp I'd look.