After my speech which i know wasnt very long but come on its the hardest thing to do stand there in front of family and friends and say how much your parents mean to you and them beside your in coffins that is beyond me if you think its easy.
Last night i didnt stay at the party for long i wasnt really feeling it and Brad could tell that so he said shall we go home which is what we did. Everyone was staying in a holiday house around the corner from my house but Brad said he would stay with me for support and to keep me company.
When we got home last night i just broke down in tears Brads the only person who i can be myself around and not care if my make up is over my face and im looking very unattractive we just got some comfy clothes on and went to bed.
It was defianty weird sharing a bed with Brad i do seriously lie Brad maybe more than a friend but he dont feel the same and i know that but you cant help how you feel.
Im not just thinking this because im an emotional wreck and im all over the place I've liked him for so long but i think we are to close or anything to happen until something took me by surprise...
