One Month~ Dolan twins and more Fanfic

Nineteen- Talks...it's wrong

Lexi's POV

I woke up in Kian's room, as per usual, but it just felt different. Something felt off. It just felt...

Wrong.

I got out of bed, and silently made my way to my room. I found a piece of paper in a drawer of the desk and a pen and scribbled a note for the guys;

Boys-

Don't worry about where I am, I just went out for a bit to clear my head. I'll be back soon. Xx
-Lexi

I got dressed into a pair of ripped skinny jeans and my oversized white sweatshirt. I slid on my sandals and made my way downstairs, leaving the note on the kitchen table and going out the front door, as I now had seen the password being entered.

121692

As I couldn't just freely go wherever I wanted, I walked the opposite direction of the road and house, towards the woods. It was bright now, around 8:04 a.m. I wandered aimlessly for a long time until I reached a clearing. The top of a hill that overlooked the city, a sight that looked very familiar. It was where Devin brought me. There has to be another way to get here by car, since we hadn't drove through the woods.

I sat down in the cool, ever so slightly dewy grass, letting my mind take over.

This is wrong on so many levels... one, I'm keeping secrets and lying to Kian. Two, I like two guys. That necessarily isn't new though, as I spent two years of my high school years liking one boy, while liking another for a brief period of time. And third. I was kidnapped, along with my missing best friend, and stuck in this house. I could've called the cops at any point in time telling them I am in a bunch of strangers' house. But I didn't. I'm not miserable here. I'm not depressed. I'm in love. I like it here. And I think that's one of the most effed up things in the world.

"Lexi?" I heard from behind me, I turned my head to see... Ethan. He walked over and sat down beside me.

"Ethan? What are you doing here?" I asked.

"Carter was awake and saw you leave the house and go towards the trees. I didn't know what you were going out here for so I followed you." He said, suddenly his 'bad ass' ego that I'd known him for, nonexistent.

"Oh. Did no one see my note?" I asked, expecting his answer to be no.

"Yeah. I did. But still." He said, looking at me. "So what's going on?" He asked.

"You care?" I genuinely asked.

"You know, I'm actually nice on the inside." He said, getting a smile out of me.

"Ok well... if I tell you then you have to promise not to tell anyone, please Ethan." I said getting nervous, for really no reason at all.

"I won't. I promise..." He said.

"As you and everyone's probably noticed, Kian and I have something." I started off.

"He really likes you." Ethan nodded. My stomach dropped.

"B-but I also like Devin. A lot." I whispered. I felt him looking at me.

"If Sammy was her, I would probably be talking to her about this, not you." I laughed a little.

"Just keep going." He coaxed.

"I just don't know what to do, no matter what I do, someone's gonna get hurt..." I said, feeling tears fall down my face. I felt Ethan scoot closer, his muscular arms surrounding me.

"Shh... it's okay." He whispered into my hair, only causing more tears to spill. I got out of his grip, wiping my tears on my sleeve and standing up.

"I'm sorry, Eth, I can't be here. I have to go back to the house." I apologized starting to walk into the woods.

"Lexi..." He called after me, but I kept walking.

I made it back to the house and went up stairs, avoiding questions/statements from the guys. I went to my room, sitting on the floor, my head in my hands, as tears fell.

"Baby..." I heard a voice come into the room. I didn't bother looking up. A pair of arms wrapped around me, picking me up, and I felt Kian put me down on his bed.

"What's the matter?" He finally asked, after he'd wiped away a few stray tears.

"There's so much wrong with me right now...going on in my head." I said, not wanting to tell him. Devin and I made a promise.

"What?" He asked, rubbing my back.

"I- I can't say." I stammered.

"You can tell me anything you know that..." He said, as I mentally agreed with that statement.

"I know, but you'll be mad at me and hate me forever..." I said.

"No I won't. I could never hate you." He said, and I could see pain in his eyes.

"Kian..." I sighed.

"Lexi..." He mimicked me.

"It's just that I was kidnapped. And I could've called the police and told them I'm stuck here. But I didn't. I like it here and that the most messed up thing I've ever heard." I shook my head.

"But that's not something you can control. That's just, as cheesy as it sounds, your heart." He smiled.

"That's not all." I said, my voice cracking slightly towards the end. He nodded, motioning for me to continue.

"Kian, I love you." I said.

"I love you too, but is that all?" He asked, smiling.

"No." I said.

"Ok." He said, wanting me to say what I was about to say.

"I...really also like Devin..." I managed to say. I looked up at Kian, tears for once not slipping down my already tear-stained cheeks. He didn't look sad, but I knew he was thinking about something.

"Okay." He nodded. I looked to the door when it opened, revealing the other half of my heart. He looked at me, then at Kian.

"Kian, can I talk to you?" He asked. I tried to manage a small smile, but it wouldn't come.

"Yeah." He said, letting go of my hand that I didn't realize he'd been holding, and getting off the bed. Leaving me in the still silence. I laid down, feeling my heart beating out of my chest.

What the hell have I done?

---A/N---

uh oh

love triangle

-lex