Edged between

Good enough

Every night I come to the same conclusion

That I'm only a living delusion

And it eats, eats away at me

For all the things I can't be

I hear the whispers

I'm not good enough

Ill never be good enough

How can I be good enough

The tears ache more than the blood I shed

And what cold be worse than wishing I was dead

I can barely breath and I'm wishing away the need

I was always just the bad seed,

The lonely and forgotten, broken

My will for life never really awoken

Life hurts, It keeps choking me

And I'm afraid there is no more fight left in me

I want to be different, good

But it never seems to go with my mood

I'm just a parasite, a sickness

And I don't have the capacity to be 'good enough'

And I know you won't miss me, but can we just pretend

That once, I was a good friend

That I wasn't a disappointment, that I was better

That I was someone you'd want to remember