Edged between

hopelessly hopeful

I walked a road that seemed so far
Even though all the things that came on my radar
There's this thing inside
That makes me want to fight

I told you I want to give up about a thousand times
Ran down all the lines
But even when the glass seems to be full
I am hopelessly hopeful

I hope for a day I won't have to scream at the wall
Where it doesn't feel like I'm about to fall
Where the sun isn't an endless torment
That I knew what what love really meant
Where I'm not scared of what's inside
Where I myself become the light

Because there's a light inside, I'm sure
I don't want to fear it anymore
I could be what I dream
But that's not what I'm destined for it seems

There's two sides
One of it, it hides

There's the eternally hopeful and the endless tragic
It works together like magic
One day I'm walking with stars in my eyes
The next I'm drowning in all of the lies, goodbyes...

And it feels like I can't be positive for the life of me
But I think I just don't see
The light that occasionally shines from me
I'm just tormented by what I think I should be
But I still hope, I still care
And somehow I'm still here

I guess I'm just hopelessly hopeful
Sometimes its regretful
It layers upon cowardice
But in some light, it seems otherwise

I cant give up, neither can i give in
Still I'm tormented by were I've been 
I still hope, I still care
And one day I won't live in this fear