Edged between

Phase

Everything goes so slowly
I fear it was my fault mostly
The way I pulled just to push you away
Speaking the words I knew you wanted me to say

I have made this cage
I went through the phase
The I'm in love with the idea of love
I never meant to be the disease
But this was always just on lease

I'm afraid to trust but I'm afraid of being alone
I'm afraid of who I am when you're gone

I tried to change everything
Become your everything
But I just ended up tearing you further apart
You were the deer and I was the dart
I don't know how to give that up,
Give you all that I've got

Some say they don't know where it went wrong but I do
It started when I was introduced to you
A perfect moment as your smile came into play
I couldn't keep the butterflies at bay
But I should've known better than that
I wasn't made for this

I can't get lost in the feeling
Its only killing
I'm too fearful of the end
Its not godsend
Break early and save yourself
Save yourself
From me
I can't be what I want to be

I love you but I can't be in love with you
Its just something I can't do
Too much pressure, too much pain
The fear drives me insane

I'm sorry for what I did.. didn't do
I never meant to break you
I was just too broken to see
You were suffocating too