Edged between

what if it was me

I see the light slowly begin to fall
I hear the silence as it starts to call
It's just a simple masquerade ball
The time has come for the final curtain call

My heart beats every time
My feet slowly shuffle over the line
Every move has to be handled with grace and perfection
Every time I fear the rejection
But it never comes
For my fear is frozen my lungs

It all comes down to this
This moment
Where I step into another's shoes
And no one knows for I leave no clues
I'm surrounded by all these people
And my excuse to hide seems feeble
But I can't help but wonder
Are they too chased by the thunder

By the expectation of being someone they are not
Are they happy with what they were dealt
Do they fear the same as me
Do they pray for something to see
That they're breaking
That they're sick of faking

Or perhaps it's just me
Who's begun to hate the person they should be
Maybe I truly am alone
In a world that's too far gone
Maybe they found who they were
They had nothing to fear

They didn't sit hours and wonder why
They didn't have to say goodbye
They didn't see the monster under the bed
Maybe its all just in my head

What if my fear isn't real
What if I'm just tormented by what I feel
What if its just my own voice
Saying I had no choice
What if they didn't care
If I laid my demons bare
What if the person I've been fighting all along
Was the one singing this song
What if it was all me
And I just couldn't see
How do I fight myself
Without killing myself