accidental love (COMPLETED)

chapter 45: never did i think.

"j-josh, p-please stop. y-you're h-hurting me," tyler choked out.

"you get what you deserve," josh growled, his big, strong hand wrapped around his husband's throat.

"i-i d-didn't do anything," tyler coughed, falling to the floor gasping for air. "p-please, c-call an ambulance," he pleaded, everything starting to go black.

and whatever trance josh was in, he snapped out of it.

"i-i c-can't breathe," tyler said weakly before completely passing out.

"oh my god, tyler," josh said with panic in his voice, immediately dialing 9-1-1.

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tyler woke up in a hospital gown four hours later, immediately panicking and starting to rip at the IV in his arm.

"tyler. tyler!" the nurse said, quickly restraining his arms. "you're ok, mr. joseph. please, trust me."

"w-where's jo-"

"don't speak, tyler. your throat is already damaged enough. but i'm assuming it's your husband you're asking about. he um... he thought it would be best if he wasn't here right now."

"why?" tyler mouthed.

"well, i-i don't know how to tell you this, b-but he is the one that caused this," the nurse said carefully.

tyler immediately bursted into tears.

"i'm so sorry. i can't imagine how hard it must be for you. h-he said something about him getting help and that he thought it was best if he spent time away from you for a while. actually, here. he left this note," she said, hanging tyler a paper with scribbly, yet very legible handwriting.

'tyler,

i can't believe i let my anger get the best of me again. you do not deserve to have to call someone who physically harms you to the point you lose consciousness your husband. you're much, much too perfect. i promise you i am going to go get help. right now. i'm going to figure out what's wrong with me and i'm going to fix it. it just isn't the best idea for me to be around you when i'm like this. i don't know what's gotten into me, baby. i hope i can still call you baby. if i can't, i understand. i wouldn't like being called a pet name by me either. but if you'll let me keep being married to you, that's all i want. but only if you're happy and feel loved. and what i did doesn't make you feel loved at all, and for that, i'm sorry. from the bottom of my heart.

as for oliver, i don't think it's the best idea for me to be around him either. i don't want him growing up thinking it's ok for him to hurt who he's in a relationship with or that it's ok to be hurt by who he's in a relationship with. i hate leaving you alone with him. i know it's going to be hard, but if you trust me enough, maybe when i get a little better, i can babysit him while you go out with your friends. i didn't really do a great job of doing that, either, baby. and i'm sorry. you're your own person, and i shouldn't be allowed to take away your ability to go see your friends. but i did. i was really controlling. and i didn't mean to be, but i was, and i'm sorry.

i promise that when i come back, if you let me come back, i'll be a better husband. and a better dad. but, husband comes first. i really love you, tyler. please tell the nurse if you need anything. her name is jenna. she's very nice and i told her to do anything and everything she can to make you feel comfortable.

i love you, tyler. and i'll see you when i'm a better husband.

joshua.'

"y-your son is on the kids' floor if you'd like to see him," jenna said quietly.