Love vs Grind (Langston Higgins love story)

Chapter 54

~Jazmine

So lately i've been fuckin' up ya'll. Me and Desean are still together, but he decided to take a little break because me and Julian have been around each other a lot more than usual. I admit that the feelings I had for him are coming back and I don't know what to do. He did me real dirty and I don't wanna get back with him but at the same time we are older and I do miss him. Although- don't get me wrong Desean is a great guy, but Julian is just different- I don't know ya'll.

But today me and Julian are getting together to talk about everything that has been going on between us.

Right now i'm in the kitchen looking for a snack to eat. Zay is at school which is good because I don't know where things are going and I don't wanna confuse her.

Anyway I grabbed the bag of oreos and took four out, put them back and closed the pantry. As I was walking to the living room the doorbell went off.

Me: "Come in!" I yelled

I went and sat down on the couch and Julian walked in.

Julian: "Wassup baby?" He asked giving me a hug

Hearing him call me that for the first time in a while gave me butterflies, which is crazy because after all these years he still does that to me.

Me: "Nothing what's going on with you?" I ask finishing up my oreos

Julian: "Shit, I got a show tomorrow. You gone come?"

Me: "I don't know Ju. Desean has a game out here tomorrow and he wants me to go."

Julian: "Oh okay." He said turning to the tv

Me: "Julian what are we doing?"

Julian: "Whatchu mean?"

Me: "We're both in relationships yet can't stay away from each other. I know you got love for Carla, but I just like Desean. And I know how it feels to have your heart broken and I don't want Carla to get hurt."

Julian: "Well you the one that's not ready to leave your nigga."

Me: "Because Julian! In case we forgot how you hurt me i'm a little skeptical about getting back with you."

Julian: "Are you still stuck on that? It was years ago and I already apologized."

Me: "I know, I know."

Julian: "If we gone try to make this work again I need you to trust me."

Me: "I'm trying it's just hard."

Things got quiet for a while as I thought about whether or not I should end things with Desean to get back with Julian.

Me: "I don't know Julian maybe we should wait it out a little longer-"

Before I could finish my sentence Ju smacked his lips and stood up.

Me: "Just until I know for sure, for sure that I want to do this."

Julian: "Man when you done waisting my time hit me up."

Me: "How the fuck am I waisting your time?" I asked standing up

Julian: "One minute you say you wanna work shit out and how you still in love with me and next minute you stuck on this nigga. If you still fuckin' this nigga let me know! Because the only time a female will ever think so hard about this is if she fuckin' both niggas and now don't know what to do."

Things got quiet as I looked down and rubbed my arms.

Julian: "So are you fuckin' this nigga?"

I slowly looked up at him and nodded my head.

Julian: "Wow bruh"

Me: "I'm sure you still fuckin' Carla"

Julian: "That's where you wrong. I haven't been fuckin' nobody but you thinkin' we was tryin' to work shit out and figure out a way to let these niggas down easy."

My jaw dropped and I looked down, now I kinda feel bad.

Julian: "Man i'm gone" He said walking out the door

I huffed and marched up the stairs.

I'll admit I am a little stuck in between both guys. Like over here I got Desean (Great guy, sexy as fuck might I add, plays football, ready for commitment, and is ALL about me and the sex is good) and then over here I got Julian (My highschool sweetheart, big heart, funny, father of my child, love of my life and the sex is OFF THE FUCKING WALLS)

The only issue with Julian is that he's proven to me that he's not ready for commitment, but at the same time we were young and had a lot going on. But we are older now and a lot of shit has changed... I just don't know.

*Later on that night*

~Julian

Let me explain the plan I THOUGHT me and Jazz had. We were supposed to see if we really wanna work things out and then break the news to Carla and Desean or whatever. But only if we knew for sure that, that's what we were gonna do. 

I though me and Jazz were serious about working things out, but now she just fuckin' wit' me and I don't like it. So i'ma fall back and let her figure it out.

Carla: "Hey baby" She said walking into the room

Me: "Wass good babe"

Carla: "Where were you today? I was waiting on you so we could catch up on Power"

Me: "Oh me and Langston was kickin' it today my bad."

Carla: "Oh okay. But guess what I got." She said giving me a flirtatious smile

Me: "What?" I asked side eyeing her trying to find out what she's up to

Carla: "Let me go get it."

She hopped up off the bed and walked to the closet closing the door behind her. A few minutes later she walked out in black lace panties and bra with thigh high socks to match and a black silk robe. 

Me: "Ohhh. I see"

She got up on the bed and crawled over to me.

Carla: "I noticed that you've been a little stressed lately and I know you been working really hard. SO! I am gonna help you relieve some stress." 

She straddled my lap and kissed me, I firmly grabbed her ass and she started kissing my neck.

I have been a little stressed and it's not because of work, i'm trying to get my family back together and Jazz is makin' it hard for me. So now i'm kind of like should I even keep trying?

She kissed me again and I flipped us over. We kissed again as I softly played with her clit, she let out a few soft moans. I stopped and took her panties off, I laid back down and slid my basketball shorts off a little and grabbed a condom, just enough to whip it out. 

I slowly slid in and started my soft strokes, her soft cries motivated me even more.

Carla: "Faster"

I did as told and sped up and her moans got louder.

Listen! If Jazz not serious about workin' shit out then i'm not either. I'ma just do me and when she ready she can hit me up!

I pulled out and flipped her over on all fours. I slid back in and started pounding her shit.

Carla: "Ohhh fuck!" She screamed

I smacked her as couple times and her screams got louder. I continued to thrust as she pled for me to keep going and within a few more pumps I nutted.

I'm not gone continue puttin' in effort if she not gone do the same, so it is what it is.

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