Love vs Grind (Langston Higgins love story)

Chapter 29

~Zayloni

Hey, my name is Zayloni but everyone calls me Zay and i'm a sixteen year old junior in high school.

Currently I live with my mom and i'm an only child. Unfortunately, my mom and dad aren't together which sucks because I hate going from house to house. I would much rather us all live in one house, but it doesn't look like that will be happening any time soon.

But, it's Friday and today I go to my dads house for the weekend. I'm just now getting home and I see my mom sitting on the couch watching Maury.

Me: "Hey mom." I greeted her closing the door behind me

Jazmine: "Hey, how was school?"

Me: "It was alright I guess. There was a fight after school which was pretty funny." I said putting my bag at the bottom of the stairs

I walked to the kitchen to wash my hands.

Jazmine: "Oh okay, well go get ready your dad said he's going to be coming early to pick you up."

Me: "Why?" I asked while pouring the soap on my hands

Jazmine: "I guess you guys are going to the movies." She said walking in the kitchen

Me: "Ohh yeah we're suppose to go see Get out." I said while rinsing my hands

I completely forgot we talked about going to the movies. I'm even more excited to go to his house now.

I turned the water off and grabbed the dry towel, I dried my hands off and grabbed a bag of Takis out the snack cabinet.

Me: "Mom can I ask you something?" I questioned walking towards the counter

I opened the bag of chips and popped one in my mouth.

Jazmine: "Go head."

Me: "How come." I stopped to finish eating the chip 

Once I finished it I continued what I was saying.

Me: "How come you and dad aren't together."

This question has been on my mind for so long. I've always wanted to ask, but I never knew the extent of how serious it was. But now, its got to the point where I really, really, REALLY wanna know.

Anyway when I asked that I noticed my mom whole demeanor change, like she frowned a little bit and cleared her throat. As soon as she got ready to answer the doorbell went off.

Jazmine: "That must be your dad." She said walking to the front door

Judging by her look it might be that serious.

I rolled up my bag of chips and sat them on the counter. I could here my mom and dad say something but then they got quiet. I walked out the kitchen and saw both of them talking.

Me: "Hey dad."

Julian: "What's up baby girl, you all packed?" He asked giving me a hug

Me: "No not yet."

Things got quiet for a little while until my mom said something.

Jazmine: "How 'bout we all sit down and talk."

We all walked to the living room and sat down.

Julian: "So your mom was just telling me that you asked why we aren't together."

I nod my head yes.

Julian: "I've been meaning to talk to you about this, because it's mostly my fault why we're not together anymore."

Me: "What do you mean?"

He looked at my mom and she motioned for him to continue.

Julian: "I cheated on your mom."

Hearing this was just, I don't know. On the inside I feel like cussing my dad out, but in reality i'm just speechless.

Julian: "I was dealing with some things as far as business goes, and I was feeling like I had to work harder to provide for my family. When I came home your mom would jump down my throat for not being home and not opening up to her. I don't know I guess I got overwhelmed with everything and instead of talking to your mom about it I cheated."

Me: "Wow." I said as I nodded my head

That was all I could say, my mind was racing with a bunch of thoughts that I wanted to know; but wasn't comfortable with asking.

Jazmine: "Your dad tried to apologize and work things out but finding that out I couldn't bring myself to stick around."

Julian: "Everyday I see you and your mom I regret what I did of course I wish we were a family. But I love your mother enough to know that she deserves better and that's why we aren't together at this moment."

Things got quiet for a while until my mom said something.

Jazmine: "Zay I know this is a lot to take in, but know that we both still love each other and we love you. As long as me and your dad stay on good terms everything should be fine. I don't want you to think it's your fault, or to start hating me or your dad over this."

Finally, I gathered my thoughts and was able to say something.

Me: "I mean i'm not mad or anything.. Okay well never mind, yeah I am." I corrected myself while nodding my head. "I'm upset because I wish I had both parents in my life, which I do. But not like how I want you guys to be. And it's kind of shocking to here that my dad cheated on my mom. But I am happy that you guys still have a good relationship."

Julian: "Good because I don't know what I would've done if you were going to be mad at me." He said as laughter filled his tone

I gave them a hug and was about to walk upstairs.

Julian: "You gotta hurry because the movie starts in about thirty or forty-five minutes." 

Me: "OKAY!" I yelled

I'm glad we talked about it. I do hope my mom and dad work things out because it sucks being at Dajah's house or at the twins house and they both have their parents in the same house, married and all that good stuff. You guys don't understand how much I would kill to have that.

~Julian

Man, I knew Zay was gonna ask about me and Jazz sooner or later. I just wasn't expecting it to be today. I'm just happy she didn't take it as hard as I thought she would.

Jazmine: "Well that went well." She said taking a deep breath

Me: "I know, better then I thought."

Jazmine: "I'm actually kind of glad she asked. I mean we've been meaning to tell her and never got around to it."

Me: "Yeah I know. I just wish we could have worked something out, it really fucks with me that she just wants us to be together."

She looked down and then looked back up at me.

Me: "I'm sure her being around Langston and DaShawn's kids fucks wit' her too. And just makes her wish even more that we would be together."

Jazmine: "Julian what are you trying to say?"

Me: "I'm saying that I want us to try and work it out, at least for Zay. You know that the love I have for you never left, and I know that the love you have for me never left. Jazz even to this day I regret what I did."

Jazmine: "Julian you have a girlfriend."

Me: "I know, but. I don't know." I said shaking my head

I have a girlfriend named Carla and she's a pretty dope chick; but Zay hasn't met her yet. I got love for Carla, but i'm in love with Jazz. This might sound fucked up, but if Jazz said right now that she wanted to work shit out I would drop everything wit' Carla and work on shit wit' Jazz.