Love vs Grind (Langston Higgins love story)

Chapter 16

~Tydajah

Sooo right now me and DayDay are layin in bed and he still won't talk to me. DayDay ugly ass hasn't talked to me since yesterday after we talked about the whole gettin married thing.

Like I know he's mad about me not wanting to have another baby but it's dead not that serious.

Me: "Day what's wrong?" I asked laying my head in his chest

DaShawn: "Nothin" He said gettin out of bed leaving me by myself

Me: "It's raining outside since you wanna be lyin nd shit. For real what's up you haven't talked me since yesterday"

DaShawn: "I just got a lot on my mind right now" He said walkin to the closet

Me: "Okay.. Like what?" I asked sittin up

DaShawn: "Us" He says walking out the closet with a shirt in his hands

I screwed my face up low-key confused.

Me: "Okay, what about us?"

DaShawn: "Ima keep it one hunnid witchu i'm thinkin about whether I wanna stay witchu or not" He said givin me a nonchalant look

I closed my eyes and snapped my head back completely caught off guard.

Me: "Run that by me one more time"

DaShawn: "Listen, we both want two different things and i'm trynna figure out if I wanna leave or stay. Like I can leave and loose the person I love or I can stay and not get what I really want which is an extension of my family"

Me: "Hold up." I said with my hand up "So you're considering breakin up with me because I don't wanna have anymore kids?"

He looked at me for a while then nodded his head yes. I stood up to put my slippers on.

Me: "DaShawn are you the one that has to carry a child for nine months and then push it out if your vagina? No you don't so sorry not sorry but a big family isn't on my bucket list. So if you wanna leave then go head and go" I said calmly "You haven't even been workin that often. Therefore your not bringin in a lot of money-"

DaShawn: "Hold up. I'm doin what the fuck I can to provide for you and my son don't throw that shit in my face" He said cuttin me off with nothin but anger written on his face

Me: "DaShawn you're not providing for mee yo! I basically been takin care of yo ugly ass you a grown ass man I shouldn't be takin care of you, I have a three year old son to worry about. But I do.. Wanna know why?" 

I gave a minute to answer before I continued my statement

Me: "Because I love you"

DaShawn: "And I love you too, but that-"

Me: "You don't love me. You don't fuckin love me DaShawn because if you did you wouldn't be contemplatin leavin me over some little shit"

DaShawn: "It's not little!" He yelled "This is somethin I been wantin for the longest and from day one I told you how I felt about havin a big family-"

Me: "We have A SON!" I yelled in frustration

DaShawn: "Let me finish! Never once did you tell me how you felt about havin more than one kid"

Me: "You never asked! What you want me to fuckin read your mind news flash nigga i'm not a mind reader!" 

Before DaShawn could say anything Dj walked in lookin scared

Dj: "Mommy"

Me: "Go back to your room baby mommy's okay"

He looked between me and DaShawn and stood there

DaShawn: "Dj! What did your mom just say?" He yelled

Me: "Don't yell at my son are you fuckin crazy?"

DaShawn: "That's my son too"

Me: "I don't care don't yell at him." I said with a mug on my facr

I turned back to Dj and walked up to him. Kneeling down so that we are eye level

Me:  "Like I was saying, Dj baby go back to your room"

DaShawn walked to the closet and came back out with some shoes.

Dj did as I said and I walked to the door and closed it. I sat back down irritated as fuck. DaShawn has told me he wanted a lot of kids and in my mind I was like "Seeeee. No" but he never asked me how I felt about having kids. Originally I didn't even want kids until I  was married. Me gettin pregnant with Dj was because we were being careless and didn't use a condom.

Now this shit got me thinkin all types of shit

Me: "So what if we didn't have Dj and you actually asked me about havin kids and I told you I didn't want any?" I asked staring daggers in the back of his head

He turned his head and side eyed me over his shoulder

DaShawn: "Honestly we prolly wouldn't even be together"

I laughed to myself and stood up

Me: "Well since we know you not gettin no more kids outta me i'll make your decision a lot more easy for you" I turned to open the door and stopped

I turned back to him and when I turned he was staring at me

Me: "You know what? This is low-key exactly like how I found out about you fuckin Crystal, you wait for me to get wrapped up and my mind is set on you for you to drop a fuckin bomb. Ever since Dj I been tellin you to wear a condom and we both know i've been on birth control. So you could have been asked me about havin more kids but never did."

DaShawn: "I didn't feel like I needed to ask my girl that I already have a kid with and love if she wants to have another baby"

Me: "Well you do. You sit here every fuckin day claimin you love me but in reality you don't. If you truly did love me you would accept the fact that I don't want anymore kids. Or at least that another kid isn't on my mind at the moment"

I paused to let my thoughts clear up

Me: "You never even asked what I really wanted to do"

DaShawn: "What did you originally want to do?" He asked lookin up at me

Me: "I wanted to be married before I had kids or even thought about havin kids. You dead ass haven't even proposed to me and your askin for more kids"

DaShawn: "I already told you why I haven't proposed" He said soundin irritated

Me: "You know what since you wanna have a stank ass attitude you can leave. And don't come back until your attitude is changed"

And with that I walked out the fact that the thought of leaving me is on his mind... Is mind blowing and lets me know just where our relationship lies.