Like just jeez when did you get like this is it my fault is it someone elsesncoudl I have done something better or done less hhh imbevaude im not against anything that happened I kinda miss it I guess I kinda miss you and jeez it's messy, and scary and god I don't k n o w why did things get so fucked why did you get so fucked why does life just suck I d o n t know