Killing Me Slowly (Lapidot Human AU)

Chapter 18

For the next 4 hours or so I was sitting on my bed replaying Jasper's death over and over in my head. I tried listening to music to drown out the bad thoughts, but it didn't work. I couldn't stop thinking about how barbaric she was and how she began to cry. Something was wrong with Jasper - and I'll never be able to know what it was. She's gone, and there's nothing we can do about it now.

I glanced at the clock and saw that it was 7:30 PM. I wonder how Lapis is holding up...I decided to text her and see how she was doing. 

Peridot: Hey

Peridot: How are you doing?

Peridot: Are you ok?

Peridot: ....?

It had literally been an hour since I texted Lapis and she hasn't responded. I started to worry and wonder if something happened to her. I decided to go out and find her myself. I slipped on my jacket and walked out of the door, making sure to close and lock it behind me. 

I walked down the hall, rode down the elevator, and entered the work room. Everyone was working and everything was back to normal. I spotted Bismuth talking to a Ruby, and I walked up to her. "Hey, Bismuth." I greeted, slightly waving. She turned to me and immediately gave me a toothy smile.

"What's up, Peri? I heard about what happened. You alright?" Bismuth asked, concerned. "I mean yeah....I guess so...speaking of, have you seen Lapis anywhere?" I asked. "Sorry bud, I haven't..."  Bismuth said disappointingly. I said it was okay, and walked back out of the work room and back into the hallway. 

I decided to just check her room because that's most likely where she'd be if she weren't working. I knocked on the door lightly, and waited for a response. There was a long pause, and I thought about knocking once more because I was starting to get worried again. The door knob then jiggled, and I sighed in relief as the door was slowly opened. 

There stood Lapis rubbing her eyes, and she looked like she'd been sleeping.....and crying. Her blue hair was a little ruffled. I then looked down and felt a large blush spread across my cheeks. She was just wearing an over-sized black t-shirt that read 'DICK SQUAD' in big white letters. Her long tan legs were exposed and I could slightly see her dark blue panties and --"Peridot?" I snapped out of it and looked back up at Lapis's face.

"Oh, uh, hey..." I mutter. She looked somewhat surprised to see me. "You weren't answering any of my texts, and I got a little worried, so I hope you don't mind me coming here, heheh..." I explain nervously. "Oh! It's fine! I just um..." she rubbed her eyes once more. "...I just wasn't expecting anyone right now, heh...I actually was taking a nap..." Lapis says tiredly. 

"Oh, um, I could go--" "No, no! It's fine...come in, I'm glad to see you." Lapis insists, stepping to the side, gesturing for me to come in. I walk in, and notice the ruffled bed she probably had just gotten out of. She sat back down on her bed, and she looked zoned out. I sat on the bed with her, and took her hand. 

"Are you okay...?" I ask, getting her attention. "Well....I just killed my ex....so not really, but I'll get over it...." Lapis mutters, staring at the floor. "I-I've never seen her like that before. A-and that's saying a lot...." the bluenette says, looking back up at me. "I know....how could she act so barbaric?" I think out loud. Lapis shrugs and looks down at the floor.

There was a long silence, and I could truly tell how shook she was from the experience. "I'm sorry that happened...I know how long you knew her and how much you cared about her..." I mumble, and I crawled to the back of the bed behind her, and sat on my knees. I began to rub her shoulders, and her previously tense form relaxed a bit.