Killing Me Slowly (Lapidot Human AU)

Chapter 35

Okay so this chapter is reaaallly long, and I spent a hella long time on it so enjoy :D

It has been about 2 weeks since Lapis saw Steven, and she hasn't really been the same. What I mean by that is that she has been spending a lot of nights just staring into space with tears in her eyes, or just being silent for the most part. I've tried to ask her what's wrong, but she denies that anything is wrong. Maybe it's just a phase, I thought. I mean, she still gives me a lot of attention and I give her a lot of attention - it's just different...

"Lapis...is this about Steven?" I asked, watching as her eyes were glued to the floor below her. We were in her room and she was sitting on the bed and I sat beside her. She snapped out of her trance and looked over at me slowly with a blank expression. "I miss him...I really didn't wanna leave him..." Lapis said, tears filling her eyes. I pulled Lapis into my lap to where she was straddling me and my arms were wrapped around her waist. I kissed her on the lips and wiped away the tear rolling down her cheek.

"I know you miss him, and he probably misses you more knowing that you're alive now...but he's the safest he can be right now under these circumstances..." I told her in a soft tone. "I know, I know...I just wish that I could've done so much more for him..." Lapis said, sniffling. Her eyes were puffy and her face was flushed, but she somehow still looked beautiful. 

"I'm sorry..." I muttered, pulling her in, her chin resting on my shoulder. She wrapped her arms around my midsection, and she pulled me in tighter, sniffling. "Hey...why don't we get out for a while and get your mind off of it?" I offered. She pulled away from the embrace and looked at me with sad eyes. She tried her best to smile through her tears, and she slowly nodded her head. I checked my phone, and it read 10:27 PM. 

Lapis grabbed her pocketknife, phone, gun and leather jacket and I did the same. We headed out the door, and Lapis pulled out a pack of cigarettes. She pulled one out and placed it between her lips, lighting it with her blue lighter. She stuffed the lighter and pack back in her pockets and she intertwined her fingers with mine as we walked down the hall. 

We rode the elevator down to the 'UG' work room, and as soon as the door opened, Lapis pulled me along, puffing out a cloud of smoke. I followed, and I looked around at all of the workers, busy minding their business. Bismuths hammering tools and weapons on  their anvils, Jaspers playing poker, Pearls serving members, Peridots repairing broken drones, and many others.

When I looked over at the Bismuths again, a slight pain washed over me for a moment. An image of our Bismuth's face popped into my head, and I closed my eyes for a moment. "You okay?" Lapis asked suddenly, and my eyes shot open. "Oh yeah, I-I'm fine..." I said, smiling. The bluenette nodded, and we kept walking until we almost reached the end of the room. Lapis looked over at a Pearl and snapped her fingers loudly, ordering her to come over here.

"Pearl, I need you to--" a sudden explosion from the higher floors echoed the room. The whole floor went silent, and everyone looked up. A Ruby then ran out the doors of the elevator into here, looking panicked as hell. "BOSS! BOSS! WE HAVE TROUBLE!" she shouted, running up to Lapis. Lapis then ran to the utility closet, and I followed closely behind. "W-what's going on?!" I asked, panicking. "Not sure, but it's nothing good." she replied, pulling machine gun from the small closet.

"GUYS, MAN YOUR STATIONS! WE GOT SOMETHING BIG COMIN'!!!!" Lapis shouted at the top of her lungs for the whole gang to hear. They all began to scatter and gather weapons and take their positions. I pulled my knife and gun out, trembling with fear. Lapis took the cig from her mouth, and flicked it into a wastebin. She then loaded the heavy weapon she was holding. Not gonna lie - she looked badass.

I guess Lapis noticed my trembling, because she gave me a really concerned expression. "Peridot are you okay?!" Lapis asked, putting a hand on my shoulder. I hesitated. "I...I-I'm scared, Lapis..." I mumbled. You fucking pussy. Both of the bluenette's eyebrows lifted, and she looked at me with genuine concern. "We're gonna be okay. Whatever happens, I'm here for you." Lapis said in a reassuring tone.