Broken Youth

Chapter 22

~ Chapter Twenty-Two ~

(I listened to They Don't Know About Us by 1D whilst writing this. And Disconnected by 5SOS. It kind of set the mood and helped me write. You could listen to those? Maybe? No. Ok.)

••Megan••

"So are you coming?" Calum sat on my bed as I groaned.
"Cal, do you really want to go? Given the fact that you just ran out your own damn house because-"
"It's fine; I'm a big boy." He smiled slightly and I could tell he was giving everything not to cry. "You should get ready now though... If you coming?" I sighed, giving him a small hug before leaving my bedroom to change. I really don't know what to do now; Harry is convinced I don't love him anymore and I cheated on him out of spite. I didn't. I fell for Luke's beautiful character and stupidly gorgeous exterior. I shouldn't have let myself do it, but I did. And now I'm in deep shit. Who knows what's gonna happen tonight? Cal's upset: that kills me. He's always smiling, always acting stupid and never not laughing at something or other. I hate this. Everything I'm doing is affecting everyone.
I don't stop myself as I search for the sharp object I keep for when times get tough. I've had too many of those. I wouldn't wear a bikini if I went to the beach; I wouldn't walk round in my underwear and Harry knows. He's the only one I would tell- maybe I would tell Jess but I can't bring myself to say it yet.
"Why are you taking so long?" Calum called, his voice shaking slightly. "Megan, don't... don't do anything." I stopped in my tracks.
"H-How do you know?" My lip trembled slightly. There was silence. "Cal. Please just tell me."
"But you'll be mad." He really was trying to hold it in now.
"It was Harry wasn't it?" My heart was thumping at a million miles an hour and 100 times louder than usual. Fuck.
"I'm so sorry. He just let it slip that you'd done something stupid after your parents died and it was a scar. A physical scar. That's all but I'm so sorry." Calum wasn't hiding now; he was crying. I sighed, dropping the blade in the floor as I got up and shoved open the door. I saw his bruised face- tears scarring his cheeks. My eyes softened as I pulled my best friend into a hug.
"Cal- it's ok." I whispered, threading my hands into his hair. He whimpered as I pulled away, holding him at an arms distance. "I promise."
"You promise?" He looked so adorable.
"I do." I giggled at the marriage reference.
"The bride and groom may now kiss..." We stared at each other. "Wait- maybe we shouldn't just for the sake of Harold?" I nodded. "Now go get changed." I kissed his cheek, indicating a thanks.

***

I couldn't really think straight just looking at Harry, dancing with Jess and laughing along to her jokes. It hurt my head just watching his intoxicated body slowly grind on her own; equally as wasted. I watched, stared even, holding the bear can in my hand, as Niall smirked at Harry and took his girlfriend off the poor boy. I sighed. Maybe I should go and talk to him- or at least make him aware or my presence. Or not. After we'd left home, everyone got into Ashton and Niall's cars, sharing seats and ignoring all driving laws: a regular in our house. We all got along, no fighting or yelling just talking. That is until we arrived at the pub, which was full, and because everyone was on edge, we had the biggest fucking argument on where we were gonna go. Which concluded in me and Jess crying, Ashton and Harry yelling at each other (for no particular reason) and Luke and Harry siding. Together. And then, out of the blue Zayn suggested, Georgia agreeing violently (clearly pissed off and slightly whipped) that we go to the 'adult' (basically a club restricted for those over 19 as many younger teens go clubbing, filling up the space for the older teens) club down the road. Barring in mind only a select few of us are actually 'adults' and most of us are still only 17-18 and not quite old enough, it was almost impossible. So we ended up sneaking in, which is where we are now; a fucking club. In every book I've ever read, everything goes wrong in a steamy, sweaty room full of desperate, intoxicated idiots. And that's exactly where we are...

I rolled my eyes after the continuos battle with myself and chose the harder option of talking to my technically-still-boyfriend. I slid in between drunk adults and underage drinkers, somewhere I used to be but since meeting Harry- everything changed, and made my way over to Harry.
"Harry?" He spun around in an instant. "You ok?" He nodded, smiling weakly before turning back again, but I grabbed his arm as the memory of Luke earlier flashed in my head and stopped him. "Harry we need to talk."
"Well not here- we're meant to be having fun with the family and not fighting." I rolled my eyes.
"We've already had an argument about where we were meant to be going, I'm sure it wouldn't make much of a difference. And to be honest, I don't really care! Look, we need to sort us out and I need to get a few things straight- as do you- and questions need to be answered. I hate this! It's fucking stupid, Haz and you know it." The alcohol in my blood caused slightly tipsy arm gestures to be made as my frustration was released.
"Megan, I'd love to talk; to get things out. Maybe even to have an agreement with our shitty excuse of a relationship, honesty. I'd be honoured. But not right now." His sarcastic reply punched holes in my heart as it was made clear- he didn't actually care. Not anymore. And I knew Harry when he was drunk; this wasn't it. He was a happy drunk, but this, this was angry, sad, lonely Harry and that's reality not thanks to alcohol.

{Authors Note}

Dedication: (@ShanMxxx) If that's your user?! Shannon, your new- forgive me. Hehee. Ok, so thank you for your support at school and whenever I see you. Love you!

Note: So I worked hard on this chapter, as always, but I hope you liked/loved it! If you didn't then comment what I did 'wrong' but I'm pretty pleased with this! Oh and if you want, you could comment what you thinks gonna happen? Or not. Ok? And don't you just love Cegs (lol)? (Cal and Meg's)

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