Broken Youth

Megan- Who am I?

••Megan••

It's been a long time. Oh it's been a heck of a long time. Scrap that- it's been almost forever since I actually felt something. It sounds gothic and weird I know, but just let me explain. This may take a long time- I'm warning you now before you get caught up in my story. Just, don't skip over this bit though. It's important; you need a background and I need someone to talk to. If you decide this really isn't the right book then walk away- I'm used to it. Trust me. But, this isn't a story you would want to forget about after the first sentence. My story is different. It's a story you may pity, get annoyed at or fall in love with. I dunno how you'll feel about it- as I said, I haven't felt anything in a while. You can judge me all you like, you can pull faces and taunt me, but just know that it won't affect me. I've been through it all- I've felt the pain. Don't ask me why; you'll find out.

Well, I will answer your question about why I can't feel anything and why I don't wish to. After you've been through the things I've been through, you won't want to feel anything. I've been broken so many times that I got so used to be being numb it just comes naturally. The amount of times I've been left standing in the dark, naked and alone with my heart aching, that I don't feel the break. If there is still a crack, an ache; anything, I can't feel it and I hope I never have to. I dunno, I suppose you could say I'm invincible and there can't be a weakness in me, but there is. At first it was hard to admit to myself that after all this time there is actually something that could bring me down in an instant. Unless you know this exact thing- the exact words, then you'll just be hitting me like a punchbag. The little emotion left inside of me has built up. It caused destruction to the people I call my friends and family. It's dangerous. It's funny how an emotion has become my worst enemy yet it is my defence and my weakness. It's confusing I know and your probably wondering what the hell I'm on about but it will become clear. I promise. Bear with me- this isn't an easy tale to tell.

I think that perhaps some of you know what I'm on about. Maybe it's happened to you or I just described it in such a way that you could put two and two together. My life is a bit like that- a puzzle. You have to use that intelligent brain to work bits out. I won't tell you everything; some parts will be to hard to tell and you'll have to do it yourself. I have to say, you will only make this harder for yourself if you don't discover what my weakness is because you can use it against me whilst I can use it as defence but be afraid to use it at the same time. This is scary- I haven't ever told anyone this before and I guess that's why no-one has beaten me yet. You see, it's an emotion you can't really live without. I didn't have this in my life until I discovered its true purpose. It broke my heart but I did help me pick up the pieces. Love. It's cliché I know but it's key in my story. I overrated it. I didn't see the point, I took it for granted; I underestimated it. I didn't realise the power it had over many things in life. That's why it's my defence but that's also why I'm scared of it. It can damage you in so many ways its really quite frightening. It's my weakness because I gave my life for someone who threw it away and took advantage of my innocence. I'm not afraid to tell you; I know you'll keep it a secret.

So now you know about my life- you know a little bit about who I am. My story is one of love, heartbreak, agony, pain and destruction. My story is one of a Broken Youth...

{Authors Note}

Hi guys! Merry Christmas (bit early but hey...)!! So, to celebrate or because I'm feeling generous I'm not quite sure, I've decided to give you a little insight to Megan.

She is the main character in this book- or one of them- and as you can tell, she is very broken (hence the title), and in need of loving. I'm quite proud of the way I have managed to think of her, and she is probably one of my favourite characters. It may be a little confusing, but the 'thing' she is on about is love. (Cliché but the truth). I will, if you vote (and comment!), give you a 'Who am I?' on two other characters too. I will give you a choice of the order.

1. Harry and then Anne

Or

2. Anne and then Harry

Lol, sorry for the lack of imagination to present them but hey...

Merry Christmas {again} and a Happy New Year. Look out for the updates and can't wait for the actual story to start. *que squeals*

Love you all- Meg'<3