Falling deep [S.M]

16- Just like old times

Shawn's POV-

It's been 15 days 11 hours and 35 minutes without Ali here. Only 14 days 12 hours and 25 minutes to go. I mean, not like I'm counting or anything. I just miss her, I miss her so much. It's like a piece of my heart has been ripped out and thrown onto a plane to the other side of the world, dramatic I know, but ever since she moved here we've practically spend everyday together so this is quite a shock to the system.

Obviously I am supportive of the reasons why she is back home but to know she is hurting and I cannot comfort her really upsets me. I'm her boyfriend, when she's feeling low I'm suppose to be the one to help her and get her feeling happy again, but how am I supposed to do that from a tiny screen two or three times a day?

I find myself going to the woods a lot lately, I know it was originally my hiding place but now it's turning into our secret get away. I go there write songs, play music as loud as I want without anyone stopping me.

I pull into the car park and duck through the trees with my guitar in my hand until I reach the middle.

I sit with my pen ready waiting for all of these emotions to ease their way onto the paper. Writing songs is one of the only way I can express my feelings, I let my creativity take over me and I let it all out.

My hands gently brush against the stings as I put together a bunch of different chords and play around with them until my work is the best it can be. My passion is music that's all I ever wish to do with my life, I want to share my experiences with others through my songs so people don't think that what they are going through is only happening to them, they are not alone.

Alicia's perfect frame, straight brunette hair, flawless skin, deep chocolate brown eyes and her breathtaking smile fill my head as I write this song, her beauty is something I've never seen before.

Once I was happy with the way my song was written and the chords where just as I like them i close my book of songs and move my body so it lay looking up at the sky, the sun threatened to shine through the branches but the wind was too strong to create any heat.

I took my phone and my fingers automatically began the process of FaceTiming Ali. We try to FaceTime twice a day, one when I wake up which is about 2pm in England and another when Ali is going to bed which is about 6pm my time, which is now. I honestly have no idea how people in long distances relationships do it.

"Hey babe" I hear her cheerful voice speak.

"Hey Sunshine, someone's sounding happier today." I say making me happy that she's happy.

"Yeah, I'm feeling a lot more positive today, the past few days have been awful but it's getting better" she said with a genuine smile.

"Good, I'm glad you are feeling that way, what are you doing tomorrow?" I say interested.

"I think I might go and see some of my friends after they are out of school, maybe get a coffee or something." She replied then her face turned to a little confused "Hey, where are you?" She continued.

"That's a great idea I think it will help you seeing all the people you care about. I'm in the woods, just writing a few ideas down for some songs I'm working on" I say pointing the camera at my guitar.

"Can't wait to hear them" she said with grin on her face. She's adorable.

"You'll be the first babe, I'll let you get to sleep now, I don't want you to be tired tomorrow with your friends" I said upset that I have to end the call.

"Okay, I love you Mendes, miss you so much" She said looking sad.

"I love you too Sunshine" I say blowing a kiss " I miss you loads babe" i continued.