.Mate Problems.

-23-

(here you go~ no more cliffhanger *sigh* if I don't dying in this cold and cold before I finished........ or accidentally fall asleep)

Ash's pov:

I was crouching with a hand on the ground and staring back at my cousin, Asha.

neither of us moved as wind blew passed the rooftop, making my hair fly in my face but I made no motion to pull it away.

the silence was heavy and oppressing, if Asha didn't kill me this would.

I felt a shoe met my sternum with so much force I was in the air for a few seconds before an elbow met my spin and slammed me in the ground.

I rolled to the side out of a kicks way and back on all fours, on hands and legs, not shifted but ready to (I just noticed I never made ash shift in this story when in the prequel with her grandma, Asher, they were shifting a lot more)

my head snapped to the left and then I hit the ground again, d-dammit....

I backed out of another hit but the second made contact with my jaw.

I spit out blood next to me, looking at Asha while whipping my mouth, she was pissed and looked ready to murder me....... it clicked...... this was just like with Ben; she was so pissed she didn't notice the damage she did....

"it's all your fault!!!!" I was kicked in the face, she....... she blames me for what happened to Ashton.

she grabbed the front of my T-shirt and head-butted me before grabbing my arm and spinning around, causing me to hit the protective railing with enough force to dent it.

I was yanked back and pushed against a wall, kneed in the stomach and went I bent in half, the air knocked out of my lungs, my head was pushed back up and hit the wall hard, I feel on my butt.

Asha backs up a little, panting as I bet pushing me around must be hard and breath taking.

I lean against the wall and stand up like that, head facing the ground as I see and feel drops of blood ling on the ground, jeez Asha don't kill me like I did with Ben.

a punch hit my temple and the shock made my head hit the wall next to it, my knees buckling but I was yanked away from the wall and on the ground, Asha straddling me and hitting me, making my head either turn to the left or to the right.

"I hate you Ash!!!!!!!! I hate you hate you I hate you hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

you may wonder why I do nothing............ I don't know........ I just don't know......... I feel like I'm obligated to do this because Ashton is her little brother, because he was with me when it happened, because............... because it's simply the right thing to do....

the seconds between the hits started to get longer, the hits weaker, she was running out of steam and only tears were left.

neither of us moved nor talked, well she couldn't have from all the hiccups and tears running down her face.

......

"you could have at least done something" she huffed, standing up and walking away, as pissed as before, slamming the door while I stayed laying on my back, staring at the blue sky.

I don't know why.... but that sky was so blue it got on my nerves.... (if you get this reference you are a boss) I smirked, really wishing for it's blue to fade away and disappear right now.

I pulled out my phone from my pocket.... the screen had a crack going through it, meh it's not too bad, I opened the photo app and clacking on the camera in the corner.

I looked at myself.... hmmmm, it's fine, maybe a bit of blood here and there, I will have a black eye that's for sure and a few other bruises at other places.

I put my phone away and stayed lying for a little while longer before getting up and pulling the hood of the hoodie I always wear over my head so people won't see my face, my blood hair was not visible as I kept it chin length after Anna's crazy ex cut it as part of my 'torture' that was the best thing that happened then, no pain was inflicted on me.... until he finished with my hair and ended up trying to cut through my shoulder for a good half an hour.

I laid a hand on my shoulder at the memory as I put the other in my pocket, I take my hand off my shoulder and open the door.

I walk out of the hospital and finally look up from the ground which I had been doing as precaution to hide my face even more then the hood could.

I looked around but I didn't see Asha's car.... yep she's really angry, I bet I'll be slapped and hit for a while.... just like Lea, she was my best friend before she got turned in what she's today, the typical bitchy cheerleader.

I wouldn't blame Asha for acting like this honestly, I deserve it.

I pull my hood more in my face, keeping a hold on it as I smile a broken smile, lips quivering as tears roll down my face.... yeah she's not to blame but I am.

I started chuckling and then laughing like I heard the funniest joke ever but this was the type of laugh you do when you feel shit, that shock laughter laugh you do when you have a near death experience mixed with pain and regret.

I finally calm down and a frown covers my face as I let go of the hood and stuff my second hand in my pocket too after texting my mom I'll be a little late.

I start walking home, being crushed under guilt and blame, wanting to bury myself and.... die (please don't mention this part against, my throat gets tight and I'm filed with dread as that is my worst fear and I tell you I hate that feeling).

it starts pouring rain, I didn't care to pick up speed even if this town was far from where I lived with another in between, I didn't care night was approaching fast, I just wanted to be alone.

alone with my mind....

alone with myself....

alone with the monster......