Better get used to it

Chapter 44

Finn POV

"Your pregnant" is all i manage to hear. I'm trying so hard to process this, don't get me wrong I want a baby but I'm never going to have time for him or her.

I'm always going to be working, money isn't a problem but I can't leave my job for this, I love my job but I also love Rachel too.

The nurse interrupts my thoughts.

"Are you ok? You look a little pale" the nurse says, I can't speak.

I nod my head a little to say I'm ok.

Rachel looks at me with tears In her eyes, we always use protection. That's what I don't get.

The nurse leaves the room so me and Rachel could talk.

She looks a me with a tear stained face.

"Are you ok?" I barely choke out, not looking into her eyes. For some reason I get the vibe that she's pissed at me.

"Does it look like I'm ok finn? I'm not ready for this" she says looking down at her belly

I feel like shit right now so I decide to take us both home so we could REALLY talk.

When we got in she slumped herself on the couch.

I sat beside her

"Are you pissed?" I ask slowly in case she snapped at me again

"No, I just....." She trails off

"Never mind" she adds on

I'm not ready for this either to be honest.

I try and hug her but she pushes me away. I don't get why she's pissed at me, I've not exactly done something wrong for her to be acting the way she is.

"Why are you pushing me away?" I ask completely shocked because Rachel loves cuddles especially from me.

"I-i just need time finn.... to process all of this" she says

"Well you don't need to take it out on me Rachel" I say a little angry at the way she's acting

"Now look who's pissed!" She shouts at me

"Well wouldn't you?! If I were pushing you away at a time like this?!" I shout letting the anger get the better of me

"I'm not pushing you away!"
She defends herself

"Well it certainly looks like it to me!" I say, it is she's pushing me away it she's too scared to admit it

"Finn, the way you acted in the doctors today said it all! You dont want this baby!" She shouted yet again

It's not that I don't want the baby, I'm just not ready to be a father yet. In a way I think I'm exaggerating it a little but who's going to look after the kid when me and Rachel's needs to go to work? Not her mum or step dad. I don't know where the fuck my family is!

"It's not that I don't want the baby Rachel, I'm just a little shocked that's all" I say softly

He eyes get watery and turns soft again the way she normally is. Rachel isn't one to get angry it's probably the hormones.

"Well I'm not ready and I accepted it the moment I got told" she says softly but harshly

"I'm sorry, I over reacted. This baby isn't a mistake. It's a treasure, some woman can't have children and you obviously can so let's put this behind us?" I ask turning to the big softy side that I have

"I'm sorry too, I shouldn't have snapped at you. You have a right to be pissed. Can we put this behind us?" She asks repeating my last sentence

"Come here" I say holding my arms open for her embrace which she entered immediately

After our argument we decided to cuddle up on the couch and watch a movie.

It was yet another scary one, so when there was a scare Rachel would grip onto me even more.

I gave her a kiss, but no normal kiss it was slow and passionate.

"I love you" I say

"I love you too" she replies

"And I love you too baby" I say leaning my hand over her belly

Rachel kissed my cheek as I kissed her belly

We stayed like that all night

I'm going to have a family

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