Fixation (BWWM) Preview

1.Life After

Constance P.O.V

It was about 11:30 PM and I sat up in my bed as I watched Bryan looking around for night clothes. To be honest after a year of being with him, we really didnt talk much and honestly I like it just like that.

"How was your day?" He asked talking off his shirt and exposing his amazingly fit body to me.

"Fine, just tired." I said grabbing my phone.

I looked at the time again an it was only 11:38 now, and I'm not sure what I expected but I never wanted tomorrow to come.

"Excite about tomorrow?" He asked crawling into bed next to me and I looked at him.

"No, can we just skip it all together?" I asked him and he laughed grabbing my chin and pulling my face to his.

"Connie I know how you fell about the spot light but it's just two minutes of you talking. Plus everyone is going to be wanting to see us both, since we moved in we haven't seen anyone much." He said giving me a light kiss to the lips.

"I guess so." I said and he smiled.

"Plus as hard as you worked in school, you deserve to get this award, highest GPA in our whole class. I'm proud of you sweetheart." He said and I nodded reaching over to turn off the light.

As I grabbed the sting for the light Bryan grabbed my hand and I knew what that meant. I didn't say anything just looked down at the bowl of condoms I kept next to my lamp. Bryan wrapped his mouth around my neck, and I handed a condom back to him. he rubbed his hand up my arm and grabbed it. He forced my head around and pressed his mouth to mine gently, making me turn to face him completely. He pulled from me and his breathing was already heavy, and I looked at him.

"Can I be on top? I asked him and he smiled sitting up.

I knew he would let me because he didn't like it, and when he grabbed my hips forcing me around I put my head down. I dug my face into the pillow, and Bryan pulled my ass up to meet his erection. He pushed up my long nightgown and simply pushed my underwear to the side.

"It amazing how thick you became Connie, maybe its because you finally eat good food." He said slapping my ass, something I wasn't crazy about.

"What can I say, people change." I replied and he chuckled.

He pushed into me and I gave him a gasp from just how much force he always used. Bryan moved his hips in circles but every moan I gave him I faked and forced out. It wasn't that he dick game was bad but, I didn't like this position, and his dick had the length but not the thickness. Sex was bad but his dirty talk was the best part, based on the fact it was always so off putting and funny to me.

"Daddy dick putting it down just right for you girl." He said and I pushed my face deeper hiding my smile, and I replied with fake moans.

"Oh yeah." I said in a fake moan and I wanted this to be over.

I shook under him and gave him loud over the top moans and he pushed into me hard with deep grunts. He also didn't last very long and sometimes, when I want to try and have a orgasm he would beat me there. He rolled off of me and stood and I turned looking at him toss his condom away.

"This dick always make you lose your damn mind." He said with back to me and I just stood heading for the kitchen, faking it takes a lot out of me.

"Get me a glass of water." Bryan said as I walked out the door.

I rolled my eyes as I walked out doing as I was told and getting my drink of water, and filling up a cup for him. I looked out the window and looked at the street lights that shined pass the curtain. The though of Seth crossed my mind but I shook my head not wanting that to happen. I try my hardest not to think of him, because its been a year and after all I walked out on him. He was a smart, funny, and handsome guy, I'm sure he moved on to another more deserving woman than me.

When I talked to Kerri she said she never saw him, and he must have dropped biology, because I didn't see him there anymore. Well I didn't expect to see him anyway, and since I have been out of school for two months I didn't see anyone much.

"Connie?" Bryan said yelled and walked into the room giving him his glass of water.

I sat on the bed as he did whatever behind me and I though about how much I hoped to not see him tomorrow. I didn't know what type of drama it would start but I for sure wanted to avoid all of it. For the sake of me and him, but more so for him and how much I'm sure he wants to murder me.

"Goodnight baby." Bryan said kissing my cheek and laid down next to him turning off the light as well.

"Goodnight Bryan." I said tapping the back of his hand.

I glanced back at him as he almost instantly fell asleep and I smiled at him. Let me be honest with myself, Bryan is a really great guy. He has always treated me with respect, buys me anything, never pays another woman any attention, and shows me off like an award. He also wants me up early to cook breakfast, and make his lunch before he goes, and cook dinner by 6:00.

I really don't leave the house without him, and I have an allowance of 200 dollars a month, and his family is always here. I never see mine not that I care, but everyday his mom and dad are here to "Check up on us". I looked at the time and it was almost one now and I glanced at Bryan. he was a nice guy and he would make some girl happy, but he has never made me happy.