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34.GoodBye

Constance P.O.V

I stood at my dads front door with my hand up but it never moved because I was nervous. I haven't seen him in a while and everything I wanted to say was stuck in the head. I wasn't sure if I was going to yell, cry or murder him for how he has treated me. I hate him with every bone in my body and I was going to yell that in his face till he understood. The Moment I could get my hand to move I was going to do it. My hand just floated in the air and when I felt Seth wrap his fist around him he moved my hand and knocked with me. My heart was almost out of my chest when the door opened and my dad looked at Seth, not me.

"Why did he come with you?" He asked.

"He's my fiance if you want to talk to me you get to talk to him," I said angrily already.

He moved out of the way and we both walked in and no one said a thing but my thought is going crazy. I have never been to his new house before, but I knew he was heading for the kitchen, that was his favorite place in a house. Just like I thought head walked into the kitchen and grabbed a glass of water and offered me a glass but I just looked at him. He huffed at sat the glass down before he walked out into the dining room and sat down. I just looked at him and he just looked at me drinking his water and he sat the glass down.

"I want to see my grandson." He said and I dropped my purse ready to attack him.

"Don't you dare call my son your grandson!" I yelled at him.

"Stop being so damn dramatic girl, I want to see the kid not raise him." He replied and I laughed.

"Why? Why do you want to see my son? Everything you have done and you think for a second I would let you near him." I said and he gave me an angry look.

"I want to meet the kid, he's apart of my family and I want to meet him." He said back angry as well.

"The man standing behind me is apart of your family too!" I yelled and he laughed.

"That sad excuse of a man isn't apart of my family, and if you didn't run away like a child I wouldn't have let you be with him." He said hitting the table.

"Let me! I'm not a child and you can't force me away from people anymore because let's face it this isn't about me. This is about you and your petty hate of someones skin color, class and upbringing." I said back and he yelled.

"Little girl you don't know a damn thing, and it makes me sick to see that you picked him. I raised you to be a strong woman, not just a strong woman but a strong black woman. I never wanted you to be weak and stupid like your mother, you were better. Good a sports, reading, writing, math, science you name it I made sure you could do it. The moment you make it to high school you date some white boy that had you dressed in leather outfits. I made you stay away from him and I found you a respectable man, Bryan and you cheat and lie for this white boy. He not only a white man, but he's ignorant, lying, cheating, backstabbing, disrespectful, and he turned you into the same thing. " He said with honest disgust in his voice.

"My mother isn't stupid when you forced me to stay up till 6:00 AM studying she made me food. When I hurt myself playing sports you liked, she wrapped up my cuts. When I was depressed and alone she took me in, when a monster like you wanted to break me she glued me back together. I don't care how you feel about anything, this is the man I'm going to marry and this white guy right here. He is my other half, my better half, and he has always been and always will be a part of me. This is my husband, the father to my child, the love of my life, and the color of him has never and will never matter to me" I said grabbing Seth arm and my dad looked at him.

"What are you going to do when he leaves you for a white girl? What are you going to do the day these people look down on him for being with you? What are you going to do Constance!" He yelled at me standing.

"What are you going to do the day he calls you a nigger?" He yelled at me.

"I hate you!" I yelled back and he laughed.

"Hate me but my job as a father was to protect you, and I did my part so when he leaves you and that hybrid baby don't come running to me." He said and I looked at him.

"I never want to see you again," I said grabbing my purse and he sat back down.

"Then Goodbye," I said and I headed for the door.

I kicked the door open and head for the car with my face burning with anger, and when I pulled the car door open. I got into the car and I didn't want to cry I just wanted to punch something and when Seth got in I was ready to go. After a moment I notice we never moved I looked over at him and I notice he was....crying.

"Seth," I said touching his shoulder and I glanced at me.

"I'm not going to do those things to you, I know we are different but I'm never going to call you that or leave you. I would never say that to you, I would never, never, never say that to you. I have never once thought of saying that to you, and no matter how much we fight I promise I'll never say that." I said holding the steering wheel tight and I grabbed his hand as light tears fell, and pulled him to me.

"Seth I know," I whispered as he rested his head on my chest and I could feel the tears there as his arms wrapped around me.

"I love you, Constance." He said sadly and I pushed his hair back.

"And I love you too Seth," I said making him look at me.

"I and you are going to be fine, you understand me?" I asked and he nodded.

"We are going to go through hell, people will think less of me and you. You will run into more people like my dad, and Seth Jr is going to sometimes have problems. That's okay, that is 100% okay because I love and we can do this together. When you're not strong I'll be strong for you." I said cleaning the tears from his face and he took a deep breath.

I think this is something that never crossed his mind before, but then again why would it. The fact we are two races never really came to his attention till now. He started the car and I looked out the window seeing that my dad came out and he waved to me. He gave me a grin thinking he bet me but I only gave him a grin back, as I raised my middle finger up to him and he frowned as Seth pulled off.