Fixation (BWWM) Preview

22.No

Constance P.O.V

It's been a week since I found put I was pregnant, and it's still shooting. I looked at the time, and it was 2:15, and Seth was fast asleep. I looked back at him and his long black hair. It was at his shoulders now, and I told him to cut it. He set a hair appointment tomorrow morning, it's amazing how he just listens to me. I just looked at him and its it bad that I love him so much that it almost hurts. I really can't tell where I start or where he ends, and that tough made me look down at my stomach. When Seth asked me if Bryan could be the father I hide the strong shiver of fear that it gave me.

I stood and grabbed my phone ignoring the loud snoring that Seth stared as I walked out. I walked into the kitchen and called Bryan, lucky for me it didn't ring twice before he picked up.

"You want me to pick you up?" He asked and I wanted to laugh.

"You wish, but hell no I need to ask you something?" I said and he huffed.

"What?" He said annoyed.

"I'm pregnant." I said and I heard his gasp.

"Is it any chance that my child is yours?" I asked and his silence killed me.

"I don't know." He replied not giving the answer I was looking for.

"No, you should be telling me its no chance, you always wore protection I made sure of that every time." I said.

"Yeah well I started that way, but sometimes I took it off but I would pull out. I never came inside of you so no." He said and I covered my face.

"Pulling out doesn't work, but we didn't have sex in a while. The night before graduation was the last time we had sex and we used protection till the end." I said and he didn't talk.

"No, the last time we had sex was about three weeks ago, it was one of the times you got drunk." He said and my heart dropped.

"What?" I said.

"Alright so after you got drunk on graduation night you didn't come home till late and I was sleep. That morning Seth showed up, after that we didn't have sex and two days later we had dinner when I told you we are staying in Chicago. That night you came home drunk and that morning I had sex with you while you where asleep." He said and I counted the days.

"Why would you do that Bryan? That's what you call date rape." I said angry with a huffed voice.

"That means I had sex with you and Seth only three day apart and that means..." I didn't talk as I listened to Bryan laughing at me.

"You know I can't say I feel sorry for you, you or Seth because I know I may have been a shitty boyfriend but you both as assholes. Now you both get to feel the pain of having your heart broke, like you did to me and like he did to Taylor. I guess its true you get everything back 10 folds, and karma is going to be a bitch for you two." He said and I hung up with tears overflowing in my eyes.

I couldn't lie Bryan was right, I was not a good person and it was all coming back on me. I lied to Bryan and Seth, Cheated on Bryan, lied to my family, let my father down, hit my own father, called my mother a waste of space, and broke Seth heart more than once. If I tell him this its a strong chance we will want to leave, and if he does stay, in 9 moths he will leave if its not his.

I stood walking to my room and as I walked into the room Seth snoring got louder and I pushed him over. I sat on top of him and he started to move till I gave him a soft kiss on his lips, making him open his eyes.

"What...What's happening? What's wrong?" He said with sleepy eyes.

"Nothing." I whispered and he rubbed his sleepy face, and covered his eyes with the back of his arm

"I don't...know either." He replied as I looked down at his erection.

I pulled his shorts down and since I was only in my nightgown with no underwear I just sat up. I lowly pushed him into me, and I gave a soft moan as he filled me. I moved my hips slowly taking in the feel of him, the feel of love in my heart as well. I closed my eyes as I released another moan. I looked down at Seth who still covered his face but how he bite his lip told me everything.

I reached down grabbing the ends of his hair and giving them a soft tug and he smiled as I moved my hips into him faster. I ran my hands up his shirt feeling his stomach and chest, and I leaned forward softly kissing his chin as I wiggled on him. he finally looked down at me with a smiled.

"I'm guessing you want my attention?" He said making me smile.

"No." I replied sitting up again and he grabbed my hips.

"So can I ask what do you want?" He asked with a smile.

"I want an orgasm, but I don't want to work for it." I replied resting my hands on his stomach.

He held my hips and pushed into me hard but he stopped with a nervous look.

"No Seth you're not going to hit the embryo in me, so you're fine." I replied and he smiled with a nod.

He held my hips tight again and pushed into me and I let out a moan letting the feel of him erase the dramas of tomorrow from my mind. I closed my eyes lost in the feel of his destroying the inside of me, and I gave him a moan every time he slammed into.

"You're so fucking tight." Seth said making me grab his shirt in my hand tight.

I pushed down on him as I felt my climax explode under him and he followed right behind. I moved my hips a little and I looked down at him and gave him a smile.

"I love you so much it hurt sometimes." I said and he gave me smile.

"I know the feeling sweetheart." He said flipping me off of him and onto my side and I smiled.

"Now you go to sleep." He said pulling my back into his and he softly rubbed his hand over my stomach and I placed mine on top of his.

This child has to be Seth not just for me but for this kid as well, to have Seth as a father is going to be amazing. I want my child to feel the same love and safety that I feel with having him in my life. I don't mind if the universe punish me for not be a great person, but I want my child to have that happiness I never got from my father.