Broken Faith ✓

Chapter 29: Snow and Ice

I was sitting at our lunch table, relishing the taste of the macaroni cheese melting in my mouth from our cafeteria. 

"So Faith, did you and Ryder do the dirty yet?" Anna smirked at me while she winked at me. 

That was all it took for the morsel in my mouth to get stuck somewhere in between my throat and my oesophagus and for me to start choking like an old woman who had the worst cough in the world as I just hacked trying to get the food out of my mouth as I went completely red and started sweating profusely. 

"Shit, I think she's really choking" Georgia gasped and said as Ariana smacked my back to lodge the food out of my mouth. 

I grasped my water from my tray and drank half the bottle to try and wash down the food and it seemed to work as I stopped hacking and swallowed in relief. 

I looked about to see just about everyone in all years looking at me and I really wanted to vanish into thin air at this point, the most annoying face of all was sniggering with her friends as she threw her blonde hair over her shoulder with sass. Valerie. 

Everyone's gaze slowly drifted from me back to their lunches and conversations hanging in the air as my face was returning to it's normal colour. I took a napkin to my forehead and wiped the remnants of sweat. 

"Good way to completely distract me from what I asked, but I ain't that forgetful when I want juicy details. So answer my question Faith" Anna smiled at me. 

I glared at her with daggers. She didn't even care that I nearly choked thanks to her and then she asked me about something so....so....something that made me so uncomfortable and shy. 

I pushed some salad around the tray with my fork and stared at the tomatoes and lettuce. I scrunched up my eyebrows not knowing what to say.

"Was it really that bad?" Anna asked mockingly and I smacked my free hand on my face in utter disbelief.

"I don't want to answer any questions related to this" I spoke with such a professional tone, you would have thought I was in a meeting.

"And why would that be?" Anna asked mischeviously.

"Because it's not something I feel comfortable discussing" instead of hiding this time, I stared right at her feeling a fierce protectiveness wash over me when it came to Ryder.

Anna sensed my serious tone as all jovialness disappeared off her face and she straightened up "I didn't mean it like that"

I looked at her and didn't know how to respond. Call me old school, but there are some things that you shouldn't discuss with your girlfriends. And for me how the sex is was one of these things. There was a reason only you and your significant other shared it. Because it was meant to be between you two. Not everyone took that view I know, but to each their own. For me it was special.

Sensing the terse atmosphere settling over our group Katy tried to slice through it by clearing her throat "I think what Anna is trying to say is that we practically forced you to tell us how you and Ryder ended up getting together and that we would just like to know a few details now and then you know, like girl talk?"

Katy had such a soft expression on her face like she was trying really hard to respect how I felt but explain what they felt too.

I sighed. Suddenly I had to become a big sharer "I get it. It's just...hard. I will tell you guys. Maybe not everything but you will know details that other people won't because you are my friends and I do want you to know"

"See isn't that nice and what we wanted?" Ariana looked at every person poignantly especially Anna lastly.

I heard a few murmurs and saw nods in agreement. If people thought only romantic relationships could be difficult, man were they wrong.