A Fiery Red Summer (Jenna Mcdougall and Hayley Williams)

Last Hope

Jenna:

Monday morning arrived, I forced myself to sleep in because I knew I hadn't slept well, I hadn't really been sleeping well for days. I woke feeling exhausted anyway so I decided to drink some coffee forgetting that the reason I never drank it was because it made my anxiety worse. I was tortured all morning worried about how the day was going to turn out. Hayley and I had agreed via text to meet at a nearby bar at lunch. At least if everything didn't go well I could get drunk afterwards, though Tay would kill me for it. She hated when people tried to drink away their problems.

Time was moving at an incredibly slow pace, but it finally was time to head out. I made sure I looked good when I left, I put on a low cut top, some skinny jeans that made my ass look great and I made sure that the little bit of makeup that I had looked perfect. I hoped lust could help her lean towards staying together even though I knew that was not what I wanted our relationship to be based on, but it was what had started it.

I arrived before Hayley. the minute I waited seemed like an hour. She walked in looking stunning as well I wondered if she was trying to work the same tactic as me or if that was her "look what you're going to miss out on now" look. She greeted me kindly, but she didn't smile.

We sat down and stared at each other, neither one of us could tell what the other was thinking or what their intentions were. I wanted to speak, to tell her I was sorry and I wanted to work things out, but I felt like there was something in my throat blocking all sound from coming out. I swallowed to clear it, but it was something created by my mind nothing I did would change it.

I took a couple deep breaths and managed to find my voice."Hayley I am so sorry for over reacting the other day. I don't want to break up. I understand why you did what you did and though I may not have my full trust in you, just as you don't in me, I don't think that's enough to end it."

Hayley sat there analyzing my words and thinking about her answer very carefully. "So during our 'break' did anything happen between you and Tay?"

"We talked and she slept on a separate bunk."

Hayley didn't speak, she looked lost in her mind, her eyes empty.

"Hayley? You okay?"

"Yeah..." she took a minute before speaking again "Jenna, I don't know if we are going to last..."

I quickly interrupted "Don't say that; we can work through it. I promise I will be a loyal and faithful partner from now on."

I don't think she was too pleased that I had cut her off like that; her eyebrows were raised and her lips were pursed. "Can I talk?" she said the annoyance thick in her voice.

"Sorry."

"As I was saying, I don't know if we are going to last, but I'm willing to take that risk. I can't deny how much I care for you, how attracted I am to you and how much the thought of your absence in my life tears me apart. So I say we take it slow and try to build back our trust..." she laughed and added "brick by boring brick."

"I am glad that you are willing to give us another shot. There's something else we need to talk about." I hesitated "Do you trust me enough to let Tay sleep in a separate bunk in my bus?" I forced a smile, but I was freaking out, I didn't want that to be the last straw that would set Hayley off.

"Why? Can she not sleep in her own?"

"Well, I worry about her, her band mates are oblivious. She could really hurt herself badly and she wouldn't tell anyone."

"I guess that's okay, as long as I can sleep in your bunk." she obviously was not upset with me anymore, she was already back to flirting.

"I wouldn't have it any other way."

We spent the rest of the afternoon chatting and laughing. I totally forgot about Tay until I got a call from Jake telling me to get back to the bus ASAP.