The title is a bit inaccurate, I'm ftm nonbinary (not sure if agender or genderqueer, lol) but whatever I've had this book for ages.
My name is Hayden and I'm a teenage unicorn boy. I like music and to draw and I also like YouTube. I'm full of love...
Christmas was two days ago but merry Christmas anyways.
I had a pretty good Christmas even tho I didn't get that much stuff. Christmas isn't about the presents you get, it's about the experience.
But anyways, a lot has happened. I think me and Micah broke up (there was no actual break up we just stopped talking). I started dating somebody else now, we had been 'dating' for about a week before winter break, but I didn't actually confirm it until yesterday because I was scared of what Micah would think.
Idk if it qualifies as cheating because we never technically broke up, but he's dating someone else, I'm dating someone else, we don't talk anymore, so...
And I went to the new guy's (his name is Brody) house yesterday. He put on Alien (that movie with aliens busting out of people chests) because I had never seen it. We were less watching it and more making fun of it while we cuddled. His mom was next to us so he threw a blanket over us and put his arm around my waist.
We also kept getting into fights of him tickling me and me trying to wrestle him off and pin him down. And we had chicken express and it was great. I think that his mom likes me.
I'm planning on seeing him again tomorrow if there's nothing else going on with him. We'll probably just do the same thing we did, just watch the second one or third one. This already feels a lot better than my other relationship.
In my other one, we couldn't even hang out because his parents knew that we were together and forbid him from seeing me so we had to act like we broke up. Now we barely see each other because our school schedules never crosses at all. Also when I opened up to him about my mental health at the time, it seemed like he tried to one up me.
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"I have it worse than you, just saying."
Seriously? That's why I don't people about this stuff, because of people who try to belittle my problems after begging to know them. Go to hell.
Anyways, my new relationship is so much better and things. In this one, I can still hang out with him, we just can't be making out or talking about things that are too inappropriate because his mom is right next to us. (Okay legit, I just finished FaceTimeing him, lol)
Also even tho he's a dirty minded guy and he likes to grab my butt (lol tmi but I honestly don't mind cause he's not gross about it) he's a sweet fucking guy. Even tho we're really sarcastic and always talk about how dumb the other person is, he doesn't hesitate to being up my confidence level.
"You're so beautiful, your an amazing singer and artist, and even tho your weird as all hell your perfect to me."
"Damn, you're so cute/you're so hot/you look good/you're beautiful." (There's countless others)
"Damn, I'm a lucky man." (You're not a man, you're 14 but whatever. Jk, I love you)
Like uggghhhh I love him so much
His mom seems to like me so I hope she'll let me come over again
(Also his profile pic on my phone)
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Okay fanboy rant over.
I gotta get going, I'm supposed to be cleaning my room.
