Like I said in the intro, people still call me by my nickname, Angel. I'm fine with the nickname, I'm just not fine with my birth name, Angelina. Whenever someone calls me it, I cringe and want to die. Sounds extreme, but that's what I think. My family knows so they just call me Angel, which I don't mind, but I've been contemplating another name.
Hayden. The name I've been calling myself that when I'm alone. It might be a temporary name, but I like it (I thought it was only a boys name until I saw Hayden Panettiere).
I'm planning on changing my last name to my mom's maiden name when I get the chance, and I might change my middle name too.
Hayden Amari (or Omari. I can't decide) Hawkins. I might add a second middle name, but that's me. I can't wait till I'm 18.
I chose Hayden because I don't know why, but it gives me nostalgia. It is a respelled version of the original version, Heiden, which means "heathen (which I recently learned means pagan. I mean I'm agnostic, but no one needs to know)".
I've liked the name for a while and I know a few people with the name. I've even started signing my artwork with it(in small print underneath my deadname, but still...).
So, yeah, let me start over. Sup. Name's Hayden. I'm agender, my pronouns are he/Zhe/they, but you can pretty much call me anything that's not female.
This was a bit of a shorter entry today. I will post another one tomorrow.
(P.S. feeling dysphoric and in pain with period cramps so that fun🙃👍🏾)
Anyways, see ya later. Peace✌🏾
-Hayden
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