Like Nobody's Business

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Nayeli Binns

"So what you're trying to say is that you like him?" Stormi raised one of her eyebrows trying to confirm what I said before. She was the only person I could talk to about my friendship with Alexander. Other than my mother she's the only person I could trust.

"No I'm not saying I like him that way," I denied. "I like him as a friend."

"But somehow you felt some type of way when he made it clear that you weren't his girlfriend?" When she repeated it back to me I could see how I'm contradicting myself.

"Yeah, I don't even know why."

"Here's a hint you idiot. You like like him."

"I don't, I admire him but that's it honestly." I've never actually thought about being with him and I'm sure there a many other girls way more beautiful than I am who's trying to get with him.

"Girl you are so damn complicated," she rolled her eyes playfully. "Just say you like him and get it over with."

"I do not like him in that way!"

I don't know if I'm trying to convince her or myself, I guess the thought of being with a person like him is maybe what's scaring me so much. Enough for me to deny the obvious truth. I know he likes me too, no one—and I mean no one—would do half of the things he did for us to remain 'just friends'. I can even tell by the way we would steal glances of each whenever we're close by, maybe we both are afraid to make that bold move. Just like me, he doesn't know if it will make things better or worse.

"Whatever floats your boat. So anyways, are you gonna tell him?"

"Tell him what?" I asked as I looked at myself in the mirror once more before we both walked out of the house.

"That you want him," she smiled as she folded her arms across her chest.

I began laughing amazed with the fact that she pays attention to nothing that comes out of my mouth. She watched me confused as if she didn't know my reason for laughing. My laughter was cut short when she signaled for me to look down the street where I could see a car approaching us. I assume it's Alexander because there's no one else in the area that drives anything half as nice as he does.

Watching him step out of his car was such a beautiful sight, something about this man screamed dominance. The way he smiled as soon as he saw the both of us, his skin glowed as the sun shined on him, I could go on but right now I just realized that he had been talking to me while I was just staring at him.

"I'm sorry, what did you say?" I asked ashamed that I got caught up in admiring him when only seconds ago I denied having feelings for him.

"I asked if you were ready to go?" He repeated slowly.

"Oh yeah, I'll see you later Stormi," I turned to see her giving me a sly grin. Without even acknowledging her thoughts about what just happened I entered into the car allowing Alexander to close the door.

The entire time I've been in the car with him I have been very quiet, I was mostly inhaling the sweet smell of his—very expensive— cologne and side eyeing him. I can not explain where this sudden feeling of nervousness has come from, this is what I did not want to happen.

"Why are you so quiet?" He asked glancing at me.

"I'm sorry about that." I tried to think of a way to start a conversation and not make the moment awkward. Maybe I really do have a crush on him, I mean I always liked him but I never knew we would be this close so I've never thought about actually being with him. So nows there's a possibility I'm actually very nervous.