My Mafia Lover | Lai Guanlin ✔

Chapter 12

Another chapter!!! Yes!!!

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Mina

I couldn't sleep these days. After that thing happened, I could never sleep properly ever again.

It's been affecting my mind lately. Not only the baby but him. I can't stop thinking about it. Even if I try not to.

I know that Daniel told me to stop thinking about it but it's too hard for me to resist.

Sometimes, I get too carried away that I'll forget that I'm still living here - in this sick and twisted world.

I would forget to eat even if I'm hungry. Luckily Jiwoo's there for me. If not, I would've died of starvation.

I wish...

There are times where I forgot that there's something, I mean, someone, living in me. That's how fucked up I am.

I try to forget about whatever happened and tried my hardest to move on. But I couldn't.

There wouldn't be a day where it won't eat up my mind. There's no day where I can forget everything and move on.

I thought I would get the freedom I need and want. I thought I could be happy again like last time.

But I was wrong. So wrong. I'm still in the pit of darkness, trying to reach for the light but it's never there.

I felt my heart ache as I was going to cry. I immediately held onto the bracelet, holding onto it so tight. I let it go when I felt better.

Sometimes, I think about that boy...I wonder where he is now...

Flashback

I ran to my bathroom upstairs after seeing my mother's dead body. I didn't want to see it or even give a glance at it.

I sat on the cold floor and hugged my knees. I laid my head against my knees as I cried.

"Uhm...excuse me?"

I heard a voice spoke, making my head slowly move up. It was a boy, standing there looking at me with a sad look.

He kneeled down to my level, getting a better view of him. "You feel sad since your mother passed away. Right?" He asked.

I stayed silent as I stared at him blankly, mostly wondering who he is and how did he manage to get in here.

He let out a sad sigh. "Don't worry. I've lost one too. I've never gotten over it ever since." He continued.

He looked down at his wrist which had a blue bracelet around it. He took it out slowly, staring at it for a moment before bringing it towards me.

"You can have this. Whenever you're sad or scared, just hold onto this for a while. You'll feel better." He said, giving me a sad smile.

I stared at the bracelet and then looked at him. Should I really take it or what? I mean, I just met him a few minutes ago...

He brought his hand a little closer, asking me to take it. My heart was asking me to take it while my mind didn't let me.

I decided to follow my heart. My hand moved up slowly, looking at his face. I took it, holding it tightly.

He gave me a glance for a while before leaving. He opened the door and turned around, giving me a smile before closing the door.

Flashback end