My Mafia Lover | Lai Guanlin ✔

Chapter 56

Sorry for updating really late. I was really busy that I didn't had enough time to write.

Anyway, enjoy!

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Few days later...

Guanlin

I layed my arm on the table as I rested my head against my arm, my eyes closed shut. I didn't want to move an inch. I didn't even want to lift my head up and look around my surroundings.

I felt hurt. So hurt that when I think about it, It would bring an ache to my heart.

I kept thinking about the same thing over and over again. While doing that, the same, old thoughts repeated along too.

I shouldn't have done that.

But everytime I say that, I would feel nothing but guilty of my actions which makes me feel worse than before.

I couldn't sleep. I kept thinking about her until sun rises. Even if I tried to close my eyes, her face would appear on my eyelids, making me open them again.

I could barely eat. I don't know why but I don't have the appetite to eat. Even if I'm hungry, I still don't have the appetite.

It's been three days since I've talked to her and I'm already missing her so much - her angelic smile, her honey-like laughter, her cute expressions.

That brought another strong ache in my heart, making my emotions come up. My hands immediately went into fists, trying to control myself.

I didn't know that this would happen. I mean, I've thought of it before but I didn't expect this to happen now.

I felt so shocked when she saw me torturing that man in the room. How did anybody not see her entering?

I won't forget her words she called me. It still rings in my head like a doorbell. It makes my heart squeeze in pain.

"You're a psychopath! A killer psychopath!"

My eyebrows furrowed as my heart did another painful squeeze. Especially when it came out from her mouth.

She's right. I am a killer psychopath.

And I'll always be.

I heard the door open, bringing myself back to reality. I almost forgot that I'm still in my own office. That's how fucked up I was.

I didn't look at who it was and stayed in that same position, not bothered to move or do anything.

I felt a hand on my shoulder but I pretended that I couldn't feel anything.

"Guanlin..." The person called. I knew it was Jiwoo just by her voice.

"What do you want?" I growled, feeling slightly annoyed.

"Look up at me." She ordered.

I rolled my eyes before lifting my head up to see Jiwoo staring down at me with a worried look.

"What?" I asked.

She let out a sad sigh. "Look, I know what happened to both of you." She said, her voice soft.

"Okay, so?"

"I think you should go and talk to her..." She continued.

Yeah...totally.

I chuckled at her response. "Like as if she would listen to me." I muttered as I looked away from her. I know that she doesn't want to see me. I can tell.