My Mafia Lover | Lai Guanlin ✔

Chapter 11

Sorry...I'm late again :/

And I'm also sorry if there are any errors. I'm just too lazy to edit them.

Anyway, enjoy!

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Guanlin

It's been few days...

Since that thing happened...

I still regret about it though. I still blamed myself of what I've done. Sometimes, I punch the wall, break some of my stuff out of anger.

But then I realised, nothing's gonna work if I keep doing that. I have to do something about it.

Come to think of it, I don't think I can...

Daniel told me to not go near her, ever again. Probably she told him that she doesn't want to see me. She hates me after all...

But it's not gonna stop me from seeing her. I might try and do something about it so that I could meet her and...try to talk things out?

I've been thinking about it lately and I felt like I should talk to her. There's no other option than this.

I want to solve this problem. I know that keeping it to myself doesn't do anything but leaves both of us separated - like this.

Not only that, I was also thinking about something else. Which was...uh...

It's so weird to say it but...

Our...baby?

I'm not used to this - knowing that I'm a father makes me feel weird. It's kind of unbelievable too.

I don't know why but something tells me that I should go and take care of her?

Not only her but that baby too. I want both of them and without them - I feel like I'm nothing.

I want to try and ask Jiwoo. Since I always see her going to Mina's room all the time. I'm sure that she doesn't know about it. I hope...

Daniel avoids me all the time so I can't talk to him. It's not like he wants to talk to me anyway.

My hands started to feel sweaty because I was feeling nervous about thinking whether I should meet her or what.

Ever since Mina came here, she made me feel things that I've never felt before or maybe I did but it was in the past.

It's like I didn't want to get away from her. If our distance is far away from each other, I feel...

Empty.

That's what I'm feeling right now. Emptiness. Regrets. Everything.

I hated these feelings ever since my mother left me. I was alone and depressed. I'm sure I regretted some things I did too.

Mina made me feel different. I didn't feel alone. I felt like someone's there for me and thinking about it made my heart skip a beat as it drummed in my chest.

I felt...happy and...alive?

But after I called her that and told her things, I feel like I'm gonna lose her. I feel like she isn't gonna be there for me.

I feel like she would hate me till the end of time. I feel like she would leave me feeling depressed.

I feel like...I'm gonna be alone again.

I sighed heavily. I mean, what do you expect from a man like me? My dreams never came true.

Because someone destroyed it.