The Safe House | TFIL

11 - Regret's Flood

It's cold again

I'm wearing long pants

But a short sleeved shirt

I'm not freezing

But I'm not used to the cold either

I don't know why I'm outside

I guess I just feel safe in the backyard

More than inside the house

So here I lay

Soft on the grass

Resting on my back

The back of my head on my arms

As I look up at the sky

The sun was covered with clouds

I missed the sun

I didn't have to squint

The sky lost it's purpose without the sun

So I closed my eyes

Chosing darknesss over light

Like always

I felt the frosty wind against my skin

Loving the fresh feeling it gave me

I could hear the wind

And it's mixed screams

I loved it

If only the sun would come back

I heard a voice

Hoping it was Colby

I didn't look

"Nate, time to come inside."

Nope

It was Kate

"One second." I said

"No, come in now." She insisted

"I'll come in when I feel like it. I'm not hurting you, now am I?" I blurted out madly

"No, but I don't want you freezing like that." She said

I scoffed

"Since when do you care about more than the money you get from me?" I asked

"Nate. I asked you once, don't make me ask you again." She sassed

I stayed quiet

She waited

That was when I heard the other voice

I assumed Pete

But thankfully

I was wrong

"Hey Nate."

I opened my eyes

To see Colby on the fence

I knew Kate was looking at well

Colby looked behind me

Finally seeing Kate

I bet she was faking a smile

"Oh, are you Nate's mom?" Colby asked

No

No

No

Please don't ask that

Please don't answer that Kate

Please don't

"Foster mom."

And there we go

Secret's out

Great

Just great

I can only imagine what Colby will think

"Oh, cool. Well I'm Colby, you're neighbor."

I saw Colby stretch out his arm

Kate walked by me

Shaking his hand

I hated her being near him

I hated every aspect of it

But I stayed quiet

"So, how do you know my son?" Kate asked

Don't call me that

Don't ever call me that

I am not your son

And I will never be your son

"He hasn't-"

Colby was confused

Looking at me

I gave him a glare

Pleading

He caught on quickly

And started to lie

I let out a breath

"I don't really. I just said 'Hi' to him yesterday, caught his name. That's it." Colby lied

Kate just nodded suspiciously

"Well, I don't appreciate you influencing my son. We don't take kindly to stangers." Kate said rudly

"Oh, no ma'am. I assure you that I have no malicious intentions with your son." Colby said

I sighed

Looking down

Now he's doing it

The whole 'son' thing

I hate it

I hate it so much

"Ok." Kate still gave him a look

"Nate!" She called

I looked up at her

Wide eyed

"Inside. Now." She ordered

She started to walk inside

I was frozen

Still debating between moving and not

I just sat there

Doing nothing

Looking at the ground

My thoughts racing

I could stop everything right now

Colby would back me up

I could be happy again

I could get Tarron too

Everything would be better

"Nate! Now!" Kate yelled

Nate

Now or never

"Coming." I said

I knew I would regret it

I'm good at regretting things