When both the ladies eventually leave
I am left alone
Alone to myself
And alone to the world
It's not like I wasn't like this before
You get used to the feeling
You truly do
I am used to the feeling
I don't know what to do with myself
This isn't my room back home
Home
God I hate that word for it
That place was no home
It was a living space
If even that
I don't know what to do
I'm just so confused
So I follow my guts
And I walk over to the window
I twist the knob so I can see through the blinds
I still can't see
At least not get the view I want
I pull the blinds up all the way
Pulling the string down and down
Finally I get the whole view
The whole thing
It's beautiful outside
Gorgeous
I want to go out there so badly
I want to feel the grass between my toes
My bare feet in the soil
I want to hear the birds chirping
The twigs snapping
The leaves crunching
All as I close my eyes an let the feelings flow
I want to breathe in the air
And get that taste of freedom
The taste I so badly deserve
But most of all
I want to feel the Sun
I want to feel the genuine warmth
That I haven't felt in such a long time
I look up in the sky
The sun is covered by a few clouds
But still visable
I squint to get a better look
And that's when I heard his voice
Replaying those words in my head
"You shouldn't stare at the Sun, ya know?"
I closed my eyes
And breathed in slowly
"You shouldn't stalk people."
I thought
I lowered my head
Looking down at the bottom of the window
And sighed out loud
With more meaning
I open then reluctantly
And look out the window
It's starting to rain
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The Safe House | TFIL
FanficNate had lived an unusual life. Keeping most of it a secret. He needs someone to save him. Will the comfort of his next door neighbors be enough to get him out of his little rut? Or will it be too late?