The next couple days
They were the worst
Nothing could make this living Hell
Any worse
But every second
Of every day
Seemed to break that assumption
Into every little piece
Until nothing was left
I had stuffed the silver key
Gently into a drawer
I continued to stare at it
I don't even know what I was thinking about
I just stared
Maybe
Just maybe
If I started long enough
Something about this mess would change
But I knew nothing would change
Not from a simple glance at a key
Or even the slip of a word
Or the heart felt of an apology
Nothing would change
I was right back where I was before
No
I was worse
I wasn't at square one
I was off the board
I was drowning
I had forgotten how to breath a long time ago
But I always had something
Something to help me stay afloat
But now
All my safety guards
Had been popped
And I was drowning
Everyone was watching me drown
I was watching me drown
But no one cared
I didn't care
I walked over to my window
I've spent a lot of time by this window
But I haven't looked out of it
Not in a couple days
But today
Today was the day I dared to do so
I looked out
Out at the bright day
Everyone in the Safe House
Even Amanda and Kat
Were outside
Talking and laughing
I watched them
Wishing I was there with them
I paid closer attention
As Colby got up
With sunglasses on
A shirt off
Swim trunks on
And a Solo cup in his hand
He was heading back into the house
More than likely to get more to drink
A smile on his face
But
Once he glanced up at me
He paused
Not happily
But not sadly either
My mind was smiling
But I was frozen
I was so happy to have him finally see me
All those days alone
They didn't matter anymore
I was so happy
But I forgot to smile
I guess so did he
Because he just looked at me
Up and down
Before taking in a breath
And looking away
Walking inside
He didn't smile
He didn't wave
He did nothing
And my happiness
Broke
Just like
Everything else in my life
I looked down
Disappointed
I don't even have a reason at this point
Everything I do is wrong
I don't need a reason to hate myself
I jerk myself back to reality
When a hand is placed on my shoulder
I looked over
'Hi.' I sign to Tarron
'Hi.' He signs back
We both look out the window
Both sad
After all that's happen
But Tarron doesn't know the half of it
And he doesn't need to
What he knows right now
That's all he needs to deal with
Then again
I'm not even sure how much he knows
All I know
Is that it's not enough
Like me
'Do you think they miss us?' Tarron asks
I don't reply
Not at first
It takes me a second
"I miss them." I say out loud
I didn't bother signing it
I didn't look at Tarron
To see if he understood
I just looked out the window
Closing my eyes
As her voice entered the room
"Boys." She called us
I opened my eyes
Listening to my breathing
I hate breathing
I hate myself
I'm good at hating myself
THANK YOU FOR ALMOST 500 READS ON THIS DUMB STORY!!! -Chris
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The Safe House | TFIL
FanfictionNate had lived an unusual life. Keeping most of it a secret. He needs someone to save him. Will the comfort of his next door neighbors be enough to get him out of his little rut? Or will it be too late?