Not One Of The Guys Anymore

12-And Now We Wait

Brian's pov-

"Thanks for the ride Jazzy."I said to Jazz as I began getting out of the passanger seat.

"No problem Bri. Call me if you need me."she said as I climbed out of her car.

I barely got any sleep last night. My thoughts had me up until three in the morning. All thoughts about Lauren. I made the dumbass mistake to kick Jazz out of my life thinking that would fix my problems with Lauren, and it had for the most part. But I was miserable for those months that Jazz ignored me. I knew Lauren felt bad about me being upset so she even told me to try to fix things with Jazz, which is one of the last things I would expect to hear from her. So now that things finally get better with Jazz again, my marriage goes back to falling apart. She threatened to leave me and I'm not sure if she's just bluffering or if she really meant what she said. Her car is still in the drive way but she could just be coming back to get some more of her things. Either way it still gives me chance to save our marriage.

I took a deep breath before unlocking the door and walking inside. I wasn't greeted by Pinkly like usually because I had a friend watching her for me while we stayed at the hotel. There was no sign of life down stairs so I walked up the steps ready to just collaps on my bed and never wake up again if she's not here. I walked down the hall to the bedroom we shared. I pushed the door open peeking inside, and letting out a sigh of relief when I saw her sleeping on the bed. I walked inside and noticed she had four bags packed, sitting by the door which confused me. I know she said she was leaving. She told me not to expect to see her here when I got home. But here she is, sleeping in our bed, but with a couple of bags packed. I know that doesn't cover nearly half of the stuff she has in that closet, so was she just taking a break from packing and fell asleep or had she changed her mind?

I quietly kicked off my shoes and walked over to the edge of the bed, sitting next to her sleeping form and buried my face in my hands. I didn't want to wake her up in case this would be the last time I get to see her, but we really needed to talk. Fuck, I never know what to do anymore.

I felt the bed shifting and heard a soft whisper calling my name. I looked up from my palms and turned my head to face Lauren who was now awake and sitting herself up. She leaned over, wrapping her arms around me and rested her head on my shoulder.

"You don't really want me to leave do you?"she asked, barely above a whisper.

"No baby, of course I don't. I'm so sorry about all the shit I said to you. I shouldn't have let you walk away like that."I said turning to face my body towards her and pull her into my lap.

"Why didn't you come home yesterday?"she asked, but not in her usually interrogating tone.

"I was afraid to come home to an empty house. I should have come home. I should have come to see you as soon as possible but I didn't have the balls to come home only to find out that my wife really meant what she said."I confessed, holding her close to me.

"I didn't mean it. I was being stupid and I thought that was what I really wanted. I came home and cried and then tried to pack my bags after realizing that you weren't gonna come home after me but I couldn't. I love you too much Brian and I don't think I could ever leave you."

"Good. I don't want you to. I can't handle you leaving me. And I'm sorry I didn't come home. I wanted to but I just couldn't. I'm so sorry baby."

"It's fine. You're home now and I'm not leaving."

"So now that everything's fine now can I can take nap?"I asked making her chuckle. "I only had like four hours of sleep last night and I'm so tired."

"Same here."she giggled. "Let's go to bed."she said climbing out of my lap and under the covers. I climbed over her and got under the covers too, warpping my arms around her as she snuggled up to me.

"I love you Lauren."I whispered in her ear.

"I love you too Brian."

Jazz's pov-

"Jimmy!"I shouted as I let myself into his house after dropping Brian off at his.

"Yes my little munchkin?"he asked emerging from the kitchen with a plate of pizza rolls.

"So I think our little Brian has finally been released...or at least is on his way to being released." I smiled as we both sat down on his couch.

I know it sounds pretty fucked up to say that and be happy about it, considering how upset he was but I realized that I was in love with him like three months ago. And it's been slowly eating me apart. So maybe after things finally end with Lauren, then I can tell him how I feel. And hopefully he'll realize that he's in love with me cause again according to Jimmy (who must always be right) he is so blindly in love with me. Besides I'm sure he'll be happier within just a couple weeks, maybe months. But he will be happier, I'm sure of that. Because one; he won't have Lauren spoiling his mood all the time and two; if I had the chance I'm more than sure I could keep him happier than she could.

"Could this have something to do with the fact that Lauren wasn't at the wedding with him?" Jimmy asked befor popping a pizza roll in his mouth.

"Well I'm still not entirely sure what happened. All he said was that she told him that she wouldn't be there when he got back home. And that after that he shut me out again. He's pretty upset about it, but I'm sure it's nothing the two of us can't fix."

"Fina-fucking-ly! I just hope she goes threw with it... I mean it sucks the kid has to get his heart broken. But it quickly be fixed by you my dear."

"Exactly."I smiled. "So what do we do now?"I asked

"We wait...with delicious pizza rolls."he stated simply, kicking his feet up and turning the tv on with the remote.

Sorry this one's kind of short. I'll try to make the next one better :p