Not One Of The Guys Anymore

31-Not A Bad Day Afterall

Brian's pov-

I felt someone shaking my shoulder, and calling my name. But I could care less. I just wanted some more sleep. I groaned and burried my face further into the pillow.

"Brian." It was Jazz's voice that was trying to get me up. I'm assuming that was a pillow that she just hit me with. "Get your fat ass up."

I turned my head to look at her, my eyes wide. "I'm not fat!" After telling her that I burried my face back into the pillow.

"You act like such a girl Bri."I could hear the smile in her voice as she made fun of me. Again, I could care less. I just want some more sleep.

"Brian if you don't get up right now I will break every string on every guitar you own."she threatened.

I almost got up in a panic but then I realized there was no need for that. "Go ahead."I told her. "I can just get Schecter to send me some more."

I smirked upon hearing her groan and throw her head down but she must have come up with a new idea. "I'll be back. I'm taking your mustang for a spin. Don't be surprised if there's a few scracthes."

I felt the bed shifting so I knew she was getting off but I quickly jumped up to grab her arm and pull her back.

"Are you going to get up now?"she smirked.

I groaned and nodded my head.

"Good. Now go get a shower before you're late."

"Will you make me some pancakes?"I asked, mustering up the best smile I could and hopeful eyes. She could never resist.

She rolled her eyes but smiled and nodded her head. I smiled triumphantly and leaned over to give her a kiss. She broke it though and climbed out of bed so she could start on breakfast, but mostly to get me to start moving.

I sighed and threw the blankets off of me and walked to the bathroom. Once my clothes were off I stepped into the shower and started washing up.

I only got at least four hours of sleep last night. My mind was every where about today. Today I have to go to Lauren's ultrasound appointment. My heart is in two  different places right now. Part of me really wants to be there for her and this baby. I want to be a good dad. The best dad I can be but I'm afriad I'm going to fuck it up. Plus it's a little hard to do that if me and this child's mom are seperated.

But the other part of me just wants to say fuck it. Leave Lauren to handle this baby on her own because she hurt me so much. Besides she has Collin so it's not like she would be completely alone. But I understand her reasoning for telling me. As the baby's father I do have the right to know and be in his or hers life. But again there's just this part of me that wants to say fuck off. I'm with Jazz now so shouldn't I be happy with her? I should be going to her doctors appointment not my ex wife's. I'd rather be planning a wedding with Jazz and talking about kids with her...well in the future of course. But this shouldn't be happening with Lauren.

But I've decided that I'm not going to be that type of dad. The one that doesn't give a shit about their kid and what kind of conditions they're in. I'm going to try my hardest to do whatever I can for this baby. And I certainly will not walk out on this baby even if it means I can't walk out on Lauren.

I turned the water off and stepped out of the shower, wrapping a towel around my waist. Walking back into my bedroom I grabbed a pair of jeans, a white t-shirt and my nikes. After I was dressed I just threw on a beanie because I was too lazy to style my hair today. When I was done I went downstairs, following the smell of pancakes.

"Oh look, you're still alive."Jazz teased, once I entered the room. 

I rolled my eyes and stuck my tongue out at her. She just giggled and turned the burner off since she was done cooking. There was already a plate of pancakes sitting on the island, waiting for me so I dug in. Jazz came and sat down next to me and started eating her pancakes too.