Not One Of The Guys Anymore

23-Confused

Brian's pov-

I woke up from hearing a knock on my door, followed by the click of it opening and then the sound of little paws hitting the floor. I opened my eyes seeing Pinkly sitting on the floor at the side of my bed. I rolled over onto my back and lifted my head up a bit seeing Jazz poking her head through the door. 

"Breakfast is done."she said softly before stepping out and closing the door behind her.

I felt Pinkly jump up and land on my stomach. She stepped up on my chest, leaning her face down to mine, sniffing before she started licking my chin. I gently pushed her away and sat up, rollingout of bed, carrying her with me.

When I got down stairs Jazz was pouring a glass of orange juice.

"Morning."she smiled.

"Morning."I smiled back, taking a seat behind the plate full of food. She placed the cup next to the plate and then went back to the stove. I chewed on a piece of bacon as I watched her move around the kitchen, fixing herself some breakfast.

She hummed a tune to herself as she worked. I chuckled to myself when she finally got fed up with her hair getting in her face repeatedly and put it up in a sloppy pony tail. But even then, her bangs kept getting in her face. I bit back a laugh again as she had to keep blowing it out of her eyes, and tucking stands behind her ear, just for them to fall back out. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't amused by watching her. She was in some sort of zone to even realize me practically choking on my breakfast to prevent myself from laughing at her.

I decided to not focus on her hair that was getting on her nerves. Before I could stop myself, my eyes were roaming the rest of her body. She took one of my shirts last night, just like she would do any other time. She's been stealing my shirts for as long as I can remember. The only difference between now and then is that now she actually gives them back. The only way I could get them back was if I went to her house myself and took them from her closet. If I didn't do that, they were hers forever.

Another difference between now and then is that she looks better in them now that her body filled out. She wasn't completely flat when she was younger but she's definitely gotten curvier over the years. Hell she probably could have become a model if she hadn't wasted her time trying to help us get famous. However she has been featured in Ink magazine and she's been approached by other photographers that wanted to shoot her. I know she's said yes to a few of them but didn't want to spend her time posing in front of a camera so she turned the rest of them down. Said it was just something to try for a while. And after that focused back on tattooing.

I can't believe I never noticed how good looking she was. She was gorgeous and I'm just now noticing it after like over ten years? Hard to believe I ever found Lauren more attractive than her. I mean don't get me wrong, Lauren is pretty but Jazz's beauty is more natural. Her beauty inside is also more attractive than Lauren's. So I guess in a way Jazz is better than Lauren. But how did I never notice?

"What?"her voice snapped me out of my thoughts.

"Huh?"I asked.

"You were just starring at me. Is something wrong?"she asked.

"Oh no. I was just...nothing." I said focusing back on the plate of food in front of me. I heard her laugh a little and a second later she was taking the seat next to me, with a plate of food in her hand. We ate in silence and when we were both finished she moved to start cleaning up the mess.

"Hey you don't have to do that. You already cooked."I said taking the plates from her hands.

"It's fine dude."she assured me trying to take the plates back.

"You've done enough. Just sit down and I'll wash these later."I said holding the plates out of her reach. She pouted and took her seat back at the island. I chuckled at her and put the plates in the sink before sitting down again.

"Go on vacation with me."I said before really thinking it over.

"What?"

"Take off work for a while and we can go somewhere. Just me and you."I shrugged.

"Why?"she asked warily.

"Because I never thanked you for taking care of me. And plus when's the last time you had a nice vacation?"

"You don't have to thank me with a vacation. You already got me this necklace."she argued pointing the key necklace I got her for her birthday.

"That doesn't cover everything you've done for me ever since you've known me."

"Sure it does."she shrugged.

"If I want to take my best friend on a nice vacation than I will."

"Not if she refuses to go."she smirked.

"So you don't want to spend time with me even though you've barely left my house in the last month?"

"You know I love spending time with you Bri-"

"Then there you go! No need to argue. We're going to Australia!"

"Australia?! How long have you been planning this?"she asked with a look of shock on her face.

"For about half a second."I shrugged earning a small laugh from her.

"Why the sudden need to do this?"

"Well I know you always wanted to go to Australia so I want to be the one to take you."I grinned. She eyed me up suspiciously for a moment, debating on her answer.

"Oh come one Jazz! Just say yes!"I exasperated.

"Fine. I'll go."she chuckled.

"Thank you."I sighed grinning proudly.

Was this vacation a good idea? Maybe not. But it isn't completely bad either right? But once I said it, it's not like I could have just changed my mind. I actually wanted to go with her. But it probably wasn't the birghtest idea considering the fact that I'm trying to fight these growing feelings for her...Then again why should I have to?...Oh right because it could possibly destroy our friendship. If her feelings aren't changing about me, then things won't be the same as they are now. She might try to distance herself away from me. But what if she actually does feel the same? Would that mean we should date? But what if we were to break up? Would we actually be able to go back to a normal friendship?

Either way things are going to change. Our friendship is in jeopardy. During this vacation my feelings could get stronger. Our friendship could get better, which means we would be an actual couple. But what if our friends think it's weird? If we do give it a chance what happens if it fails? So maybe I should just keep my mouth shut. But if my feelings do get stonger how am I supposed to just keep it bottled up?

Jazz's pov-

I have no idea what Brian wants from this vacation. Maybe he seriously wants to thank me. But part of me is thinking...or maybe just hoping that it's because he's starting to like me in the way I'm liking him. 

This could be the perfect opporunity to confess my feelings for him. But what if that just completely blows up in my face? Plus what if he actually does feel the same way? Would we really be able to be a couple? Or would it just be awkward considering the fact that we've been best friends in a brotherly and sisterly type of way?

I definitely need to have a talk with Jimmy before we leave for Australia...

Finally a new chapter! xD I feel like after the last one people thought they were finally going to end up together because they went home together. I hope I didn't get anyone's hopes up. Haha but when I was writing, that wasn't even a thought in my mind until people commented and I was like ooh snap. So I actually considered making some changes but then I decided to stick to the orignally plan. Ok I'm gonna stop rambling now and hopefully you guys will comment and vote :)