Not One Of The Guys Anymore

24-Confessions

Jimmy's pov-

"Hey Jim."I heard Brian's voice from behind me. I turned and flashed him a smile as he made his way over to the chair that was next to me, lighting up a cigarette. We sat in a comfprtable silence for several minutes...well he actually didn't seem too comfy, fidgiting around in his seat like he had something to say.

"Can I ask you something?"he asked breaking the silence.

"Yea shoot."I told him.

"It's about Jazz."he said trailing off a little at the end.

"What about her?"I asked.

"At some point in your friendship with her have you ever...felt like you should be more than friends ya know?"he asked. He seemed to be tripping over his words, like he didn't exactly know what he wanted to say or maybe he did and just didn't know how to word it. But I have a funny feeling I know exactly where this is heading...

"Nope."I smirked. "Why?"

"I just...I don't know man. It's weird."he sighed.

"Care to elaborate?"

"If I tell you something you promise not to tell anyone?"he asked looking at me with hopeful eyes. I chuckled lightly to myself but nodded my head. I know I'm his bestfriend and everything but it's so funny to see him like this. It's rare. 

"Not even Jazzy?"he asked to be sure. I nodded my head again, zipping the invisable zipper on my mouth. 

"I think I might be...I kind of like Jazz."he muttered. I could barely hear what he was saying but I already knew what he wanted to say before the words even left his mouth.

"And?"I asked. 

"What do you mean and?!"he asked looking at me like I had five heads.

"What are you gonna do about it?"

"I don't know. What the hell am I supposed to do about it?"

"Tell her ya dipshit! You're already taking her to Australia, why not just tell her there?"

"Because I can't just tell her!"he said, clearly frustrated.

"And why is that?"I asked.

"Because if I do it could fuck up our friendship. Everything's perfect now and if I do tell her what if she doesn't feel the same way?"

I thought about telling him that that was impossible considering the fact that she does feel the same way. I could tell him now so that he has nothing to worry about but...nah. Besides it's a pretty good way to get back at him for Jazz. She's been feeling the same way for months so why not let him suffer for a bit? Plus I'm just an evil little prick like that. 

"I'm sure it wouldn't be totally fucked up."

"But it could...And you wouldn't find it weird if your two best friends started dating?"he asked.

Are you fucking kidding me? I've been waiting for it to happen for years now! "Nah, can't be that weird dude."I said cooley. "Just tell her how you feel."

"You really think it's a good idea?"he asked in disbelief.

"Yea sure. I think it's a great idea."I shrugged.

He didn't say anything else. Just sighed. I watched my best friend as he got lost in his own thoughts. Of course it would be the most difficult and stuborn two people I know to fall in love. 

"So are you gonna tell her?"I asked after letting him think for a couple more moments.

"I guess I have to."he muttered before putting his cigarette out and heading back inside.

I chuckled to myself at how silly the two of them were. My laugh was cut short though when I felt my phone vibrating in my pokcet. I checked the caller i.d and smiled upon seeing that it was Jazzy.

"Yellooow?"I answered.

"Hey Jim-Jam."she chuckled nervously on the other line.

"What's up buttercup?"I asked.

"Nothing much. Just finished packing for Brian and I's trip."

"So is there a certain reason why you called me?"I asked.

"I was thinking we could hang out before I leave tonight. So does early dinner sound good?"she asked.

"Yea sure. I'll meet you after I'm done here."I told her.

"Ok see ya later then. Bye love ya."

"Love you too."I said before pulling the phone away from my ear and hitting the end botton.

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"Nice of you to finally join me."Jazz teased standing up from the booth she was waiting in.

"Yea I know."I chuckled pulling her in for a hug. I let her go and then took a seat at the booth. She sat down across from me.

After our food was ordered we talked and joked around as we usually would. I insisted on paying as a good bye gift even though she was leaving for not even a week. She finally let me win the argument with a pout and then we made our way out to our cars.

"Jimmy."she said making me turn around to face her.

"Yes my dear?"

"Is it stupid of me to be nervous for this trip?"she asked looking up from her hands.

"Hmmm...just a tad bit."I said flashing her a smile. "Why are you nevous?"I asked leaning against her car.

"Well...because of Brian of course. I don't know what he wants."

Should I tell her what I know or...no no no. Brian's gonna do it. It would be better for him to tell her rather than me spoil the surprise...But god dammit she looks like a little puppy the way she's looking up at me! No Jimmy. Don't tell her. Besides this is way too fun right? Watching these two idiots worry over the same thing.

"He just wants to spend time with you."I shrugged.

"We've been spending time together for the past like three or so weeks."

"Well that was him spending time with you because you insisted on being there for him while he dealt with a heart break. And this is him saying thank you...And since when do you have a problem with being with him?"

"I don't have a problem. I like being with him. I'm in love with him remember? But I don't know I just...I feel nervous. Kinda like how you feel nervous for a..."

"First date?"I smirked.

"Yea I guess that's what it feels like..."she said after thinking about it. "But it's weird. I never feel nervous with Brian. Ever."

"I'm sure you were nervous when you were losing your virginity to him."I smirked earning a glare from her. "But really there's nothing to be nervous or worried or scared about kiddo. I promise." I reassured her, pulling her into my arms.

"I feel like everything's going to be different after this trip, I just don't know how."she murmured into my chest.

"It will definitely be differnt. But I promise everything will be ok."

"Ok..."she mumbled pulling away from me.

"Now you have to go before Brian leaves without you."I said smiling at her again. I gave her a little nudge so she would start walking to the drivers side. "Go go go!" I ushered, giving her ass a slap. She giggled and swatted my hands away before climbing in the car. She blew me a kiss before backing out of the parking lot and driving away.

Mehh I don't really like this but it's the best I could come up with :/ Btw your comments always make me smile even when I'm in a bad mood which has been alot recently ;p