Not One Of The Guys Anymore

22-Flirting

Jazz's pov-

"Hi Pinkly."I crouched down to her level to pet her while she happily greeted me with doggy kisses to my hands. I heard foot steps coming down the stairs and looked up, finding Brian looking down at me.

"You ready to go?"I asked standing up.

"Yup."he answered going to the door and holding it open for me.

Tonight we were going out with the guys and their girls to the club. I was surprised Brian was actually up for it. I was surprised he even handled seeing Lauren and Collin together so well. I thought he would have went crazy and beat his ass. But he handled it much better than that. And he's still making progress in getting better. He's back in the studio. He's smiling and joking around more. I honestly thought it would take forever to get him to smile again but to my surprise, it happened a lot sooner than I thought it would.

"What are you all dressed up nice for?"Brian asked after we got in the car. I looked down at my outift which was black shorts, a white tank top that had black sequins in stripes, a short leather jacket over that,  ankle boots, and the necklace Brian got me for my birthday. 

"What do you mean? It's not too much is it?"I asked looking at him and then back down at my outfit.

"Nothing."he muttered. 

"What are you dressed up all nice for?"I asked, looking him over. White v-neck, black jeans, his favorite nikes, leather jacket. It's what he usually wears but some days he looks way better than others. And this was one of those days. "Plan on bringing a girl home tonight?"I teased. Of course just joking.

"Maybe."he shrugged.

"Are you serious?"

"Yea, why?"

"Well uh...I don't know. I just...I dunno... Why are you doing this?"

"I miss the old Synyster Gates."he shrugged. "So maybe I'll bring him back."

Great, I thought sarcastically. I don't think I'm going to like how this night is going to go down with the old man whore Synyster Gates. I like the more mature Synyster Gates way better. Plus I don't know if I'm going to be able to handle watching him bring some chick home. Back in the day I wouldn't mind that much because I never noticed I was in love with him...Now that I'm aware of those feelings, I can't see what good is going to come out of this.

Brian's pov-

Jazz didn't seem too into the idea of me bringing a girl home. I wasn't even sure if I would do that though. Now a couple of years ago if I heard we were going out I would make plans to bring whatever hot girl I could get. But I'm not like that now. Even after a divorce and being newly single. I'm just not sure I'm going to be able to do it. I think it would be good for me to bring a different girl home, to get my mind off of things.

In the past couple of weeks, after Lauren left, Jazz has barely left my side. And after finally coming to grips with the fact that Lauren was never coming back because she was happy with someone else, I've finally gave up on her. She's already asked me to sign the divorce papers so why waste my time, waiting for her to come back. When I finally realized that, that was never going to happen something about me changed. Something about the way I look at Jazz changed. My thoughts about her have changed. She's not like my little sister anymore, she's something different. I might have an idea of what that could be but I'm refusing to admit that to myself. That would only fuck our friendship up in the end.

That and maybe because she's the only girl I've been around since Lauren left. So maybe I'm just trying to move on and Jazz is in the way. Maybe I'm just confused. Will bringing some chick home to fuck help that? Probably not. But I haven't had sex in a while, so maybe it could stop those thoughts about Jazz from flooding my mind.