He was my date for my uncle's Christmas Eve dinner party, and it felt like the world around me was shrinking, because I felt like everyone could see the vulnerable parts of me. It had been since the beginning of high school that I was truly single for a long period of time, and I didn't know how to act around someone who I thought was attractive. I wanted him to see me the same way, and maybe by the end of the night, I could receive a kiss.
I dressed in a white dress my mom wore for a dinner party for my dad's work. There was an opening so you could see my cleavage, and a thick jewel embellished collar that wrapped around my neck like a choker. My face was painted accordingly and I wore my black Aldo's. I was beyond nervous for Edson to see me. My friend Martin assured me that everything would be okay.
During dinner I looked at Edson's plate and told him that he ate so much less than my ex. In my mind I thought that I shouldn't have said something about Aaron, but I wasn't too bothered by it. We took a picture together and sent it to his friend (my cousin) James, captioning it as "future newlyweds". We joked around and said we were going to have a kid and name him James. After having our kid, I would leave Edson and take everything— " the yacht, money, kid, everything".
After dinner when we went to James' house, we flirted and played word games on my phone. We were both pretty good at this and moved up about 20 levels. I came up with any excuse to hold his hand for a couple seconds, and I kissed his cheek and thanked him for being my date to the dinner.
Oh how I wished he would kiss me goodbye, but I was only living a fantasy in my mind.
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I Was She
Poetry[Complete] A series of poems and short stories tell the sad tale of a breakup, of rejection, and of finding new love. From losing her soulmate to learning to see the world from a different perspective, M.A. Rivers writes down every last feeling that...
