Struggles (L.H)

Confused

~stella~

wow I've never seen him get mad...well duh stell you barely met him !

anyway.... he looked really upset and he practically THREW his phone across the room he's lucky he didn't break it.

"what the hell?" ash said referring to Luke.

"I think I'll go talk to him...I think he's just upset over a sensitive topic." I say ,the boys nod in agreement and continue to chat and scarf food down.

   I'm hungry but ...I'm fat sooo yeah I guess you can say I haven't ate in the last three days.

I reach the top of the stairs and knock on his door .

"who i-is it-t?" I hear Luke...he sounds like he is crying.. he puts him self down a lot it seems...kinda like me.

"it's ella Lukey and I come in please?" I say sweetly ...I hear a few thuds.

"yeah um don't come in yet just a minute" he says his voice is really raspy and well hot...but yeah he was crying you could tell.

I can hear things falling and him cussing a bit and then the door opens.

he looks worse than ever....like drained.

" come in sorry I was um busy" he said he had a sweatshirt jacket on ... he said he was hot why would he put on a jacket?

I make my way to his bed and plop down on it and he joins me .

he lets me sit on his lap facing him ..I'm surprised he doesn't complain on how heavy I am.

"sooo.. um what did you need stell? or are you sleeping here or...?" he asked completely puzzled .

" well um I came up here to ask you what's wrong? I'm kinda worried you were so mad and upset ...oh and here's your phone" I hand him the phone ,he grabbed it and bites his lip ring as I  bite my lip also...fiddling with my snake bites.

"oh that? pshh it's nothing I just seen something that mad me angry is all I over reacted to a text.. it's nothing I promise"he states .he's lying to me I know he is .

"Luke if your not going to tell me the truth since I am your friend now,I will look through your phone to see ." he looks at me wide eyes at my threat .

"um... I uh.. it's a topic that I don't want to get into... " he stirs so hard to get his ass out of this.

"please Lukey????? as I told you before tell me anything im not the type to just not keep a secret!"  God only and a day we are like best friends...I thought he'd be hard to talk to from what Mali and cal told me... but something just clicked .

" just just here !" he hands  me his phone  shaking ..his whole body was trembling I can feel it.. he's nervous and scared he sides his face.

I look to see his networking sites notifications blown up..

             all telling him he should die.

I look up to see him running his hand threw his hair making it messy and he hides his face again from me...I noticed something on his grey sweater though,it's blood a lot of it on each sleeve.

" yeah I know I'm pathetic go on tell your friends about me go and laugh go and make me more dead then I am already." he says before I could do anything.

" give me your arms .NOW" he shakes his head no but I just grab them .

"fuckkk!!!that hurts!!!" he yelps.

"I'm sorry but I had to look at it Luke this is bad. " I pause looking I have the blood all over my hand." come on get your shoes on were going somewhere" I need to get him to the hospital now before he loses  more blood.