Struggles (L.H)

Life has only began.

~Luke~

-fast forward to next week-

I'm back home in my own bedroom...mum's left again I haven't seen her since I attempted . I'm quite used to it though as I have said before my guess is she won't come back until a couple months...

the boys and Stella even Claire have been checking up on me lately ,Stella is supposed move to her house today she tested me about it this morning she's really happy.

Claire .....I have no idea she only came once to see me after the indecent happened ...she thinks I'm crazy or lumpy in the brain... don't blame her and I knew she'd leave she got dumped by Shawn just like I said she would because he's a manwhore .

I still like her ...even though she causes me pain.but when I go close to her I get chills even when she tells me to fuck off.there is something about her I keep coming back too.and I remember her..she made my life hell for three years.

my phone rings it's Stella.

lukeyyy!! eek I can't wait to show you my flat I want you to be the first to see it !!

that's sounds good Ella love um what time do you want me to come?

um noon? it's just a block from Ashton and them it's a purple house .

I can't wait see you In a bit okay?

okay and giant , afterwards Can I come over and chill at your house I've missed you since I left last weekend to pack!

um yeah okay I'm cool with that  .bye Ella

she then hangs up....me and Stella are...well I don't know what we are ...yet. I don't think she likes me and I really like her but then there is Claire.I push her out of my thoughts and decide to clean up in The house and myself.

it's 8:30 am so I have time. ....

I start to clean in the kitchen and do the laundry ...then my room...

as I'm cleaning I discover a box ,tin box, I know what holds it ...I already did that this morning again... I can't help myself I open it. razor blade,sharpener blade, broken scissors ,an art carver,and a .. lighter  . I didn't know I still had all of this.. I find it beautiful. I force myself not to even though I crave it right now. I place it on the shelf in my room

I finish my room and make it perfect thanks to OCD...

finally I shower washing the dry blood off my body and get dressed.I choose my jeans and a plain black shirt with my black beanie with my black vans to go with it.I make my hair into a a somewhat perfect quif.  you can say i am fond of black.

it's now 11:30 . .. I have enough time to walk there and find it I text her.

TO: blue hair gal *____*

hey I'm on my way see you soon!

I make my way down the street she replies.

FROM: blue hair gal *___*

okay!! can't wait cutie

I chuckle to myself at her reply.. she is the only person who told me I was decent looking.

I  can't believe it is actually purple! it looks cool it's a one floor house and a big one I might add!!

Stella catches me off guard and runs screaming Luke and tackles me in a hug. she looks pretty . she has a crop top that says ' but your not Andy' relating to bvb .  she s Awsome..she also has a high waist shorts on with vans like mine. her hair is now a bright pink...looks good.