Struggles (L.H)

"home"

(a few weeks later Luke gets released into a temporary

foster home)

   

      "welcome to your new home for a few weeks Luke!"this officer named like blake is my "dad" and I have a "mom"?

   they said I have a brother too and I just it's weird ...

don't trust them Luke,they are going to hurt you.

I make my way to my "room" which is a blanket and a pillow on the floor in a basement with boxes and stuff in it....oh well.

"what the fuck is he doing HERE!?"

"WTF WHY IS SHAWN HERE WHY ARE YOU HERE?"

"I live here dumb ass why ARE YOU HERE?"

"well just so happens to be your temporary brother until he gets adopted and he just came out of the hospital."

   "oh I see little emo boy cut to deep?or wait was it because that other girl rejected you because she found out?!"

. that fucking scum.that fucking stupid Shawn I hate him.

hit him Luke ,I want you to hit him.makee him feel the pain you feel...do it.

    "WHY DON'T YOU FUCK OFF BEFORE I BREAK YOUR NECK"

"you THINK YOU'RE TOUGH NOW YOU DIPSHIT?"

    before he could say anything else I drop everything and launch at him swinging right to left breaking his nose again and punching him in the cheek.he falls he didn't put up much of a fight and I'm pulled off of him and thrown out of the house..even though I just got here.

    I start to walk towards my old house...mom's probably not home and I still have the key to the house.as I arrived as usual she's not there so I unlock the door and sit on my couch..it's been so long it seems like.

   you know what you need to get Lucas..we all now.now go get it before she returns.

   I wander up the stairs into my room...it's a mess .it looks exactly how it looked that day.there's blood stains on the floor and my box of blades are untouched ,and the bottle of pills I took is on the floor empty. I get all my posters and belongings and pack them in a empty backpack and last but not least I pick up the box...he's taking over me.

    that's right Lukey take the box and run away from here.

as soon as I pack every thing I decide to call Calum.

    (Calum is the italics)

hey Luke whats wrong how's the home?

  can you uh can you pick me up?

yeah um sure me and the crew will where are you?

   I'm in my  room.

okay where uh coming.don't do anything

    ~€nd of convo~

after that I hang up and I sit on my bed and stare at the wall ...maybe I could just..no hemmo no you can't or else u go back.

      do it .

          slice your stomach no one will see it ...no one it will be our little secret right Luke?

    "are you sure...I just maybe there is a alternative?"

I'm sure do it you won't get better unless you listen to ME.